So I went over to my mom and dad's today to sneak a look in the boxes of maternity and newborn things I had stored from my pregnancy with baby Winter and the clothes and such he outgrew. I haven't told them I'm pregnant yet because they know how dire our finances are and I know they would not be supportive or kind about it at all.
Anyway, so I found that they had put everything in the basement. And come to find that all the water leakage from a burst pipe they had in the basement ruined EVERYTHING. I'm freaking out because we are so freaking broke it's not even funny. I can't even consider replacing it for months, and we have a $2400 homebirth to pay for and I don't have insurance. I am absolutely bawling because we are overdrawn on our bank account, 2 car payments behind, owe my mom and dad $1300 and combined our income barely pays the bills with nothing left over. I get child support from my older sons' fathers but not reliably at all. Once every couple of months, maybe.
This is just the last straw, you know? I don't even know what to do because I can't go back to work full time because the cost of childcare would be what I would earn. Right now we work opposing shifts so we swap the kids but there's only 4 hours available for me to work before he goes to work, he works the latest possible shift at our job.
Anyway, thanks for letting me freak out. I still don't know what to do but at least it's not all bottled up inside.
Anyway, so I found that they had put everything in the basement. And come to find that all the water leakage from a burst pipe they had in the basement ruined EVERYTHING. I'm freaking out because we are so freaking broke it's not even funny. I can't even consider replacing it for months, and we have a $2400 homebirth to pay for and I don't have insurance. I am absolutely bawling because we are overdrawn on our bank account, 2 car payments behind, owe my mom and dad $1300 and combined our income barely pays the bills with nothing left over. I get child support from my older sons' fathers but not reliably at all. Once every couple of months, maybe.
This is just the last straw, you know? I don't even know what to do because I can't go back to work full time because the cost of childcare would be what I would earn. Right now we work opposing shifts so we swap the kids but there's only 4 hours available for me to work before he goes to work, he works the latest possible shift at our job.
Anyway, thanks for letting me freak out. I still don't know what to do but at least it's not all bottled up inside.
to you Lydia. I don't have any advice, but I wanted to give my support.
Dd turns into a pumpkin around 1:30 or 2:00. She's put herself on this nap routine and if she misses one, she's freaking miserable. I've tried to get her to nap on me or in a sling, but she hasn't done that since she was 3 months. So, I'm unhappily married to a nap schedule. 
: if I have somewhere I absolutely have to be. But, she's happier at home on our bed or in her crib.
