Ok, I had a horrible horrible day and no where else to turn. To make a long story short, my cousin and I who are pretty close dispite our completely different parenting styles, get into a huge argument today that I don't think even needed to happen. She has a 2 month old baby boy and I'm expecting our second child, a boy in November. I said I watched this video of a circumsision and then say the step by step procedure done in pictures. It was absolutely horrifying!!!!!!!!!! Words cannot describe it. We had already decided not to circumsise and although I know it's a touchy subject, I really thought I could tell her how I felt about it. I don't have a lot of supportive people around as it is. Just a few of the things that put us on the "unpopular list" are that we're planning a homebirth, extended BFing, co-sleeping, no circ, pro-homeschooling, cloth diapering, ect. NO ONE in mine or my husbands family does these things. Anyway, she started hounding me on how it's unsanitary not to circ and on and on. I wanted to end the conversation before it got out of hand so I said, AND I'M QUOTING "Well, I think it's cruel." NOT saying she was a cruel parent, just that for me to do it to my son would be cruel and I won't do it. Among many many other reasons. She hung up on me....
I decided not to just let it go and that I should explain to her what I meant. That didn't go well... Finally I end up balling, Grace starts balling, and Steven's pissed as hell with her. None of this helps that I'm pregnant and all over the place. I just feel so alone. Even if I were in a group of a 100 women in my town, I would be the ONLY one who beleives in the things we do. I feel soooooooo alone. Even my mom won't really talk to me about having our next baby because she doesn't want to talk about it being a homebirth.
I just have to say, I consider myself a pretty intellegent person and my mind is not swaed easily. I don't take for granted everything I hear or what the doctor says. I do my OWN research. And I honestly have to say that if Grace were a boy, I would have had her circed although I would have had pain relief for the baby, I didn't know about the other reasons not to do it. Everyone has their own opinion, and I totally respect that. So I hope I didn't offend any other people tonight.
I'm really not trying to, I just wanted to talk about what I read and what I had seen. I'm just a talkative person... Obviously.
Feeling like a big fat blob of poop
I decided not to just let it go and that I should explain to her what I meant. That didn't go well... Finally I end up balling, Grace starts balling, and Steven's pissed as hell with her. None of this helps that I'm pregnant and all over the place. I just feel so alone. Even if I were in a group of a 100 women in my town, I would be the ONLY one who beleives in the things we do. I feel soooooooo alone. Even my mom won't really talk to me about having our next baby because she doesn't want to talk about it being a homebirth.
I just have to say, I consider myself a pretty intellegent person and my mind is not swaed easily. I don't take for granted everything I hear or what the doctor says. I do my OWN research. And I honestly have to say that if Grace were a boy, I would have had her circed although I would have had pain relief for the baby, I didn't know about the other reasons not to do it. Everyone has their own opinion, and I totally respect that. So I hope I didn't offend any other people tonight.
I'm really not trying to, I just wanted to talk about what I read and what I had seen. I'm just a talkative person... Obviously.Feeling like a big fat blob of poop
They really have helped lift my mood! 
I really didn't mean to offend anyone by voicing my own opinion. I listen to others and respect their wishes. I just couldn't see doing a circ on our son.
