is it coming back... already?

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sorry I had to delete this due to some privacy issues with someone I know both online and IRL....

[Penelope]

I'm so sorry things are looking bad.

Is there a midwife or an herbalist you could sit down with?

[megjo]

You mentioned that you have ptsd. I also have that. I don't mean to sound gloomy, but I don't know if it can be kicked out of your life for forever. I'm surprised even now how simple things can trigger a reaction when I don't consciencensly know it at the time. You know that ptsd has a lot to do with triggers. Could it be that something triggered this feeling?

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[*clementine*]

I just read your post, and hmmm.....
I had a baby three months ago, and I haven't left the house since lol.
I've tried to tell everyone that the ayurvedic thing to do is to be pretty low key and stay at home for the first 6 wks. (Which IS what they say) and I do live in an ayurvedic community. BUT, Ezra's now 12 weeks and I'm no where near being able to go out and about. I do sometimes....but not like I normally would. For the first month I was really focused on death as well. It felt we'd already all died and that I was looking back on us and seeing how young and sweet we all were, and every moment was so utterly sad and holy.
I haven't thought much about it how I've been acting until my sister called yesterday and during the conversation she told me that her and her husband were laughing about how I won't leave the house with this baby since it's my fourth and he's "so hearty." I get really overwhelmed if he poops or something and I"m not at home with the kitchen sink to hose him down.
I guess it's hormones?
I used to hate being at home lol.

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[MCatLvrMom2A&X]

I went thru pg depression with my ds big time I ended up on meds for it. Yes it is very possible to get pre ppd I looked it up on the net while pg with ds. Seems to be more common than I ever imagined but most woman dont get help for it for one reason or another. I wish I could tell you a fool proof way to get rid of it but the only thing that helped me was meds. I can understand not wanting to use them because of the risks but sometimes the risk for not using them is so much higher.

I had sever ppd with my dd and my biggest regret is that I didnt go to the dr until she was 3mo I ended up loosing out on so much with her I was worried about the dr not taking me seriously but my biggest fear was that there was no med I could take and bfed. Bfing was the only thing keeping me sain and to give it up was not a option. Turns out now there are many meds that are safe Zoloft being ranked the safest for pg and bfing woman. I strongly urge you to talk to a dr about this and get treatment.

With my ds who I had the pg depression with and took meds pretty much the whole pg my ppd was not nearly as bad and I was only on meds for about 5 months vs 15 months with my dd I dont know if getting treatment while pg made the difference or if it would have been that way anyway.

A big to you. I hope you get the relief you need.

[dollfacepink]

ive never had ppd, as this is my first, but i have/had ptsd and panic/anxiety disorder with some depression thrown in. im halfway through the pregancy and it seems the hormones like to hit hard in spurts. whenever that happens, it triggers everything again. (and this may be tmi, but the yeast infection thing happens to me as well, so it must be those funky hormones messing with us ) one of my biggest fears is having ppd after birth, so im afriad im actually making it worse for myself. im trying to stay med free for as long as i can, but im just now starting with a counselor to try and stay ahead of it. my ob says thats the best thing you can do, try and stay ahead of it and be really aware of how you feel and learning how to cope. my ob is great and constantly reasures me that even people without anxiety get things triggered by hormones and it s all too common. the faster you catch it, the less you ll have to suffer through. i hope this passes for you mama <3 best of luck!