I feel so Lost

[gumby74]

I just have to let this out because it has been eating away at me since Andrew was born. I'm trying very hard to change the way I feel, but nothing seems to be working. Dh and I moved to a new town where I don't know anyone and for the first time ever I feel as though I have lost my identity. The little family I have live about 4 hours away. I can hardly think about how life used to be before we moved without crying. I so badly want to be happy, but I can't just change the way I feel. Andrew was born 13 days ago and I have so much self doubt that fills my head. Everyday I ask the question....how can I be a good mom to him if I can't even make myself happy? DH means well by insisting I get out and do something, but all I feel like doing is sleeping so that I can dream that life is better. On top of everything else I feel incredibly guilty because DH and I waited so long to have Andrew and I can't even figure out how to make myself enjoy every minute. Should I just blame the way I feel on hormones? Will time make things better? I wish so much that I knew when this pain was going to go away. At least then I would have something to look forward to. Anyway, thanks for listening.

[kfowler]

Sounds like you could have PPD. I would suggest going and talking to your OB or general physician and ask him/her about the possibility of getting on some meds. You could also look into some counseling or look into joining a mommy group so that you have someone to talk to. Best of luck to you!

[ashtree]

Im so sorry. I fear that I will be experiencing something similiar, as we are moving across country in a few months and I wont know anyone. I hope your dh is being supportive right now and understands that you will get out when you are ready. And I hope everything works out for you. Is there a LLL in town or nearby?

[megjo]

Moving is so hard. Not only did you do that, but you have a new baby too! I'm sorry mama that you feel so down lately. The sleeping a lot clues me in that it's depression related which is more of chemical thing....so see your doctor. Hang in there and keep talking, especially if it makes you feel a bit better.