Niamh: Thank you so much for taking the time to read my concerns and I really appreciate your honesty.
I mentioned I would feel uncomfortable If my son asks "why are they praying?". I was meaning I would feel uncomfortable explaining it in front of my inlaws. You are right though, it will make me look silly and that was where my nervousness was coming from. We have decided to let our son know that if he wants to pray with them that he can.
I think my issue with him going to church and praying is I don't want him doing something he isn't able to fully understand and there is only so much his mind will be able to comprehend when he is a child. I just want him to make an educated decision.
It is not that I want to ban him from church because I think that he should have the opportunity to go and I don't want to take that away from him. I think I am just trying to protect him. I was forced to go to church because my step dad wanted my sister and I baptized. I didn't understand why I was there and felt a lot of judgment. I have always felt very uncomfortable in church (not just my step-father's) and I don't want him to ever feel that way or feel judged. I think I need to focus on letting go of some of my insecurities...
We really want to teach Leo about all religions as they are all interesting to us as well as emphasizing nature. I like your idea of building up a community for him which is something we will focus on.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with me. In my post I was being really honest and openly admitting my fears, but I am just trying to realize that Leo is going to be his only little person and I have the opportunity to guide and share my own unique perspective with him