Hi you guys 
I'm hoping I can glean some advice/hope/support from some of you who have btdt.
My little guy is 4 months old ~ at 3 days pp I noticed things weren't right and in turn ended up having ppd REALLY badly, I am just now pulling myself out that miserable hole ~ I still have issues with OCD and anxiety but not to the extent that I did 2 months ago.
I've read The Natural Guide to Pregnancy and Postpartum Health and am currently reading Beyond the Blues, I also have Women's Moods sitting here and I've just put in a request @ my library for The Mood Cure & Depression-Free for Life. Up to this point I've used nutritional and herbal means to keep my sanity but it seems like this anxiety/ocd thing is being stubborn and I'm not sure if I should just keep on doing what I'm doing w/ the hopes that it'll go away, or if I should give in and get a script for an SSRI.
My problem is SSRI's make me nervous, I'm a huge herb/natural rememdies buff and often find myself untrusting of conventional medicine, and yet I know that they can really help too. Bottom line is I'm tired of being tormented by my OCD and anxiety, it's A LOT of work to keep myself calm all the time while also chasing 4 boys, dealing with a husband who travels a lot and homeschooling. I tend to be fine during the day (most times) but at night is when I have to prepare myself so the idea that an SSRI might help me get through this is a very relieving thought.
Although I admit I am nervous about calling up my m/w asking for help especially since it's been 4 months since I've had Seamus. I don't know why because I know she would. I think some of it is I would feel like a weakling or that she'd look at me as a bad mom. I also feel like a failure, like if I were only stronger I could of/should of been able to pull myself out of this using herbs only. My other fear is that the SSRI's wont work, will make it worse or I'll have to go try half a dozen before I find that "perfect" one, all while still trying to take care of my day to day tasks of being a mom.
My 2nd question/worry. As I said earlier my little guy is 4 months old, we would like 1 more baby although we don't plan on having another until he's around 3 so we'd get pg when he's 2.5 or so (that is IF things work out it took us almost 6 years to concieve him, I'm trying to be hopeful lol) ~ this will be our last baby should we be blessed with one more.
My fear is going through the ppd again, I would like to avoid that particular hell if I can and so while trying to heal myself now I am also trying to learn what I need to do so that when the time comes I will be prepared. For those who had ppd and went on to have more children what did you do to prepare? Part of me thinks I should probably just go on an SSRI while pg and continue w/ them until I feel ready to wean, my hope is that if I do this I can avoid the pits of ppd or at the very least make it less severe.
I'm sorry this post is so long, but my thanks goes to anyone who made it through my blabbering lol
I'm hoping I can glean some advice/hope/support from some of you who have btdt.
My little guy is 4 months old ~ at 3 days pp I noticed things weren't right and in turn ended up having ppd REALLY badly, I am just now pulling myself out that miserable hole ~ I still have issues with OCD and anxiety but not to the extent that I did 2 months ago.
I've read The Natural Guide to Pregnancy and Postpartum Health and am currently reading Beyond the Blues, I also have Women's Moods sitting here and I've just put in a request @ my library for The Mood Cure & Depression-Free for Life. Up to this point I've used nutritional and herbal means to keep my sanity but it seems like this anxiety/ocd thing is being stubborn and I'm not sure if I should just keep on doing what I'm doing w/ the hopes that it'll go away, or if I should give in and get a script for an SSRI.
My problem is SSRI's make me nervous, I'm a huge herb/natural rememdies buff and often find myself untrusting of conventional medicine, and yet I know that they can really help too. Bottom line is I'm tired of being tormented by my OCD and anxiety, it's A LOT of work to keep myself calm all the time while also chasing 4 boys, dealing with a husband who travels a lot and homeschooling. I tend to be fine during the day (most times) but at night is when I have to prepare myself so the idea that an SSRI might help me get through this is a very relieving thought.
Although I admit I am nervous about calling up my m/w asking for help especially since it's been 4 months since I've had Seamus. I don't know why because I know she would. I think some of it is I would feel like a weakling or that she'd look at me as a bad mom. I also feel like a failure, like if I were only stronger I could of/should of been able to pull myself out of this using herbs only. My other fear is that the SSRI's wont work, will make it worse or I'll have to go try half a dozen before I find that "perfect" one, all while still trying to take care of my day to day tasks of being a mom.
My 2nd question/worry. As I said earlier my little guy is 4 months old, we would like 1 more baby although we don't plan on having another until he's around 3 so we'd get pg when he's 2.5 or so (that is IF things work out it took us almost 6 years to concieve him, I'm trying to be hopeful lol) ~ this will be our last baby should we be blessed with one more.
My fear is going through the ppd again, I would like to avoid that particular hell if I can and so while trying to heal myself now I am also trying to learn what I need to do so that when the time comes I will be prepared. For those who had ppd and went on to have more children what did you do to prepare? Part of me thinks I should probably just go on an SSRI while pg and continue w/ them until I feel ready to wean, my hope is that if I do this I can avoid the pits of ppd or at the very least make it less severe.
I'm sorry this post is so long, but my thanks goes to anyone who made it through my blabbering lol
