if you had ppd with your first, did you have it w/other dc? - Page 2

[Mommy2Jackson]

I could have almost wrote your post. I have struggled with depression and an eating disorder since I was in high school. Since ds I have been doing very well with the eating disorder but still struggling with the depression/anxiety.

I had a terrible birth (not really, but in my mind).....I had pre-e and had to be induced two weeks early b/c of protein in my urine. I ended up getting and epidural totally wasn't ready for labor....had to have pitocin....epidural quit working....had two lateral extensive tears. Next time I am definitely going with a midwife and am going to be prepared.

Anyway first 2 weeks went great.....perfect baby and no nursing problems. Then bam colic, reflux, sleeping 3 hours a night......a couple months later supply problems nothing helped no reason for supply to drop (I think it may have been all the stress and anxiety about him screaming ALL the time)....then we dealt with food intolerances.....so it's just been one thing after another and he is very high needs anyway. I've had some ppd and a lot of anxiety and gone back and forth between doing meds....I am currently on a med and it really does help.

I am hoping for a much easier birth and baby next time. At least next time I will be prepared and not have first time mom syndrome

This is kind of personal and you don't have to answer if you don't want to but I was just wondering if your eating disorder got any better after you had your ds?? Mine has been a long journey and when I found out I was pregnant I was at a somewhat "sort of better" state. However I quit what I was doing when I found out because I couldn't do something that could hurt my baby.....so long story short I have been ed free since!! My family calls him the miracle baby who saved my life. I was 20....not married but in a serious relationship....and just 2 months out of a inpatient ed program.....yeah sounds not good......but he truly is my little miracle baby and I finally realized there was sooo much more to life...

Sorry this turned out so long.......

[JessasMilkMama]

I had ppd with #1
#2 was a fantastic birth experience but the ppd is worse
it doesnt help that she has been very high needs and I dont get any sleep since she wakes up all night still

[USAmma]

Yes, worse second time around. I had a great birth with both of them, esp #2, but she had health problems, I had breast problems, and I think the stress and sleep deprivation was really bad. It took me more than 2 years to feel myself again. But now I feel great most of the time and even thinking about about a new career.

[sugarcube78]

wow

You know...you sometimes think YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE OUT THERE WITH THESE FEELINGS...then you come across a site like this. It's so nice to know you're not the only one out there. I found out I was prego on my daughters first birthday. Holy CRAP, not expecting that. I freaked!!!! I was hurled into panic attacks and depression. At one year old, I had finally felt like my PPD was under some sort of control, My husband and I were finally finding some balance in our lives...and generally the three of us were happy. This pregnancy was a shocker to say the least. But really what scares me more than ANYTHING ELSE...is the PPD. I just can't bare to go through that again. It's funny, someone wrote that the black cloud was descending on the 4th day of birth. It was like that for me too!!!! Actually almost as soon as she was out! I haden't slept in days...I was starting to halucinate from lack of sleep...the whole experience of the first child is surreal. I had a PERFECT birth though...I just keep worrying about this PPD. What if I can't handle it. My Dr. said the same thing...even If I do have PPD, we know what to exspect, we know what to do...but whatever.

So It's so reassuring to know I'm not the only one that worrys about this. I really was thinking of calling it quits after our first because of the PPD.

[tullyleague]

I had it pretty badly the first time and AWFUL after my twins were born. When we had our ultrasound with this baby, I almost cried with relief when I saw that there was only one baby in there. The thought of going through that PPD again was staggering.

[kkar]

I had mild/medium PPD with my first, but not my second. But then, I had a much better network in place so that might have made a difference.