The best news is that the chances of you having cancer are slim. Honestly. So there is a very good chance you are cancer free.
Mine started out deep inside, and, like I said, very painful (which is often a sign of a inflamed lymph node, not cancer, but I wasn't that lucky). Mine was also smooth, but did have 2 nodes. I did not want a biopsy for it can spread cancer cells, so I arranged for an u/s which showed a dark black mass, indicitive of cancer. I also denied a mammogram as I didn't think that radiation on a cancer prone area was a smart idea. Nor did I feel comfortable w/smushing a tumor like a pancake. But that is just me.
Here is my thread on it, on MDC, http://www.mothering.com/discussions...er+surgery+Amy
Fear is the biggest problem w/fighting this disease. My sister was diagnosed w/breast cancer a month or so before I 'came down' with it. I know without a doubt that my grief and saddness for her translated in me getting cancer. I have never in all my life felt that level of sadness and it affected me. I have been doing fantastically until recently. A family member stated that the family thinks I'm "terminal" and I have been in a deep depression since
Of course, my lump has grown since this disclosure and I'm having a hard time getting out of this fog. I spoke w/a good friend today and have definite plans on how to get my head back on, so I am hopeful that I can get out of this and feel 100% again. But back to fear, it has such
a tremendous effect on the body. My emotions got me into this situation, and they can get me out.
Much love to you, regardless of the actual 'diagnosis'. Listen to your body and try to love yourself, it is the most important medicine out there