~~August Pagan Mamas Circle~~ - Page 9

[maeveypoo]

Hey all!

Sorry I haven't been posting, just been really busy. And then Saturday our oldest puppy passed. It was really unexpected he was only 10.5 years old; I found him at a shelter when he was just a tiny puppy. We had a really lovely ritual for him and all the kids (even Destiny) were able to say good-bye in their own ways. (Des knelt down and pet him and then gave him a big kiss.) We all helped dig his grave (in the shade of a big fir tree in the back yard that he loved to lounge under) and built a great rock cairn over it, then we sat around it and talked about our favorite memories of him. It was really hard on us, as Winter was my husband's familiar and with him through some very tough times. I'm truly amazed at how well the kids are doing since he'd been there all their lives. This was my first experience in having someone truly close to me die (I suppose I am pretty blessed to have made it 31 years without losing anyone!)

On a more happy note ~ Happy birthday 13moons!! and Emmama, enjoy your reunion with your hubby! I can't even imagine being apart from mine for that long (we're pretty mushy, can't even go a couple hours without making contact ) Today we get to go visit my family for the afternoon, my brother is here on vacation from NJ!! I haven't got to actually sit and visit with him in about 5 years since he came home for Christmas/New Year's the year I got divorced.

[wombatclay]

Funny about Isis and being "claimed by" a specific goddess aspect.

I've had a steady devotion to Brigid and Airmid, first in their aspect as christian saints (my mother's family are black Irish, living in the West Virginia mountains, and my nanna was/is almost stereotypical in her traditions and teachings regarding the fair folk and the power of saints like Brigid) and then later in their pre-christian aspects when I left the Catholic church.

But several years ago I wanted to "jazz things up" I guess, and I was sort of seeking new goddess paths. I was really interested in Isis, started studying and reading and meditating on her, and then I had a dream....totally vivid "you are there" dream in which Isis essentially told me I "was not hers", I belonged to her sister, and that I should get back to the place I belonged.

Completely freaked me out for a few days, and even now I can remember every detail from that dream (down to the smells, the texture of the stone wall under my hand and the fact that the stone was slightly warm even though it was night, the clothing I was wearing, etc)...so really I've never experienced a clear "call" to a specific goddess aspect, but if that dream is any indication, I've been "sent off" by one!

[Pam_and_Abigail]

Hi! I'm behind in reading but I wanted to pop in and say that we're back from our vacation and it went pretty well.

[zavierchick]

mostly a fly by post here, busy week as usual- have a few minutes to myself while waiting for the Little Man to wake up so we can head out to run errands....

13 moons- HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :

emmama- have fun tonight : & WOW on the calling I have not had anything like that in my life- how beautiful!

maeveypoo- I am SOOO sorry it is so hard to lose a sweet puppy, we are still dealing with losing our furgirl 6 weeks ago the blessed part is, the kids really do bounce back quick, don't they? Peanut was "fondly remembering" Sadie the day after, very matter of fact about it, in fact

salvia, emmalina- fascinating article and discussion- food for thought for me, because I think I may be one that hasn't related as well to the Triple Goddess, so the Four Fold sounds interesting, I only got a chance to skim today, but will read up some more later and probably feel compelled to comment, more, too I : at the velvet comment, only because I know a great many "gothic pagans" here that are very much velvet wearing folks, and unfortunately, the large majority of them are mostly just playing a part. A rebellious, "i'm not mainstream", look at me, I'm so BAD kind of role, and it reflects very poorly on Pagans who are just normal working moms and dads, kwim? Like they got a little too much of a dose of "The Craft" movie for their inspirations? I'm re-reading that, and it's not coming across quite right, but the boy is calling now, so I'm off for a while- take me with a grain of salt today, I'm a rambley girl!

[mamaofthree]

zavierchick: I get what you are saying. There is more to being Pagan than dark eyeliner, long black hair and velvet. I know a few "pagans" who do the whole dress up bit, and then have no reverence (sp) for the earth. I don't get that.

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[Indigo73]

I keep losing this thread for weeks (and sometimes months) on end. Sigh. Well I found it again, just a week late.

Salvia - thanks for the link to the article. I have read one of Donna's books and may have to pull it out and read again.

[Emmalina]

Hi everyone,

Thanks to all of you who read my overlong and crazed postings! I actually feel really good to have written down all of my thoughts and this is pretty much the only forum for that kind of thinking!

Emmama - sounds like you are experiencing something amazing and I am sure I am not alone in saying I'd love to hear about it. This may sound weird, and I don't want to crash your post or experience, but years ago I made contact with a being called Ariel who I thought was a spirit guide but just googled her and found she is a goddess! I have been feeling for a while that I have the spiritual equivilent of an answering phone message that I couldn't pick up and I think this might be it. If anyone has any info on Ariel or links I can use I'd appreciate it as info is thin on the ground.

I'm glad that I didn't offend anyone and that I am in good company here with my thinking! Thanks for the positive comments and especially to Salvia and Emmama for starting this discussion and for helping me with my path

We need some pagan emoticons! xxx

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Am I invisible?

[13moons]

Originally Posted by OdeToJoy

Am I invisible?

What d'you mean, OdeToJoy?


Okay, so I was not around much of this weekend, but I just want to say thank you all for the birthday wishes--we had a fabulous time! Emily, you are probably picking up your dh right now but have fun!
This conversation is great and I really want to contribute more to it as soon as I finish catching up!

mamaofthree--the popcorn maker is rather bulky, but fortunately I have one spacious cupboard to keep a few things like that in. Really, though, it doesn't get stored very often since my kids looove to snack on popcorn.

[Sijae]

Originally Posted by OdeToJoy

Am I invisible?

I don't know about you but I know I am

Laura

[Emmalina]

Originally Posted by OdeToJoy

I'm not a fluffy bunny, mainstream pagan either. You won't find me writing my name as Lady MsWonderful Higher Than Thou Raven Morgan Pagan.

: Nice one!

[Emmalina]

Sijae and Ode - will you use your powers for good or for evil?

Sorry for not commenting on your posts I was off on one but would like to hear further about your experiences.

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For those who may not realize it, my username used to be something else. I've been posting on the pagan thread for quite some time. Do not try to guess who I am (on this board) but feel free to pm if you don't know who I was.
I changed my username due to someone harrassing me. She's no longer bothering me but, well, I don't really trust people anymore. heh.

[chrfath]

Those are all really powerful stories about person experiences finding a goddess or not finding the right one. Very cool.

I haven't been very focused lately. Too much kid time I think. I have a lot going on in my life right now. I know this is the right path for me I just need to focus. I have so many things that need focus on right now it isn't going very well.

I love reading this thread. But think I need to take a break for a bit. I have once again been spending too much time on the computer. Real life is calling me.

[13moons]

OdeToJoy--Ah, I understand now. And I just realized who you are and now have to say "duh" to myself. I am glad you are still posting with us and thanks for mentioning the change--I wouldn't have thought to look for it. I'm also glad you aren't being harassed anymore. That's awful.
I do think that in this thread in particular, we jump around between topics so much it is easy to miss posts or forget to comment on ones that we want to in our haste to respond to all the different things and throw out our own ideas about something.

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[GoldBerry]

Sijae and OtJ~ not invisible! Sometimes I'd like to be. Although, if I could choose I would rather be able to fly.

Anyone every dream of being able to fly?

OtJ~ The 'heh' in your post gives you away. Hope your experience is more peaceful with this username.

13moons~ be sure to come back and tell us what you think about our talk! Glad you had a nice b. day.

Happy, happy thoughts of Emily and her family all together

[owensmom]

I haven't dreamt of flying in a long time. I used to, a lot.

So, ds picks up feathers with an almost ruthless obsession. Any thoughts? He keeps them, I find them everywhere - in pockets, in piles, on the floor. I am not allowed to throw them away or put them back outside.

[GoldBerry]

Originally Posted by owensmom

So, ds picks up feathers with an almost ruthless obsession. Any thoughts? He keeps them, I find them everywhere - in pockets, in piles, on the floor. I am not allowed to throw them away or put them back outside.

I think that is sweet. As a kid, I did that with rocks. I had several bags of rocks under my bed. My mom got rid of them, except for a few she kept and gave to me a year or so ago. That was really nice. Feathers are light- maybe you could keep some for him? O.k.- decluttering nightmare!

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Um...er....What was I going to say? Let me reread some of the posts....