~~August Pagan Mamas Circle~~ - Page 3

[Valerie.Qc]

Originally Posted by Bella Babe

Feeling so unconnected right now. I haven't done anything special ritual-wise in months. Hopefully after I get home, I can get back in the swing of things.
I think it's because summer is so overbearing here. I don't want to be outdoors, I want Fall, I feel more spiritually connected from Samhain-Beltane. Summer is not my time.

I want rain.

Sorry for the blue post. I don't really feel blue! Fun tidbit- The day before we were really sure about the pregnancy I went to http://www.free-tarot-reading.net/ for a reading and got three pertaining messages "stressful money" "talk to the main man in your life" and "unplanned pregnancy!":

I like that site!

Sorry you feel disconnected, I was right there not so long ago.

If you want rain you're welcome here! we have rain and thunderstorms almost daily here this summer :

I tried the tarot reading and Wow! I still have chills thinking about it. Hum... I really need to look more closely at this question I asked...

[heket]

Originally Posted by Bella Babe

Hey guys, just signing in for the month!

I am going to L.A. this weekend for some R&R with my little brother. I need a rest so bad. Of course during my "vacation" I will be looking through *thousands* of items of clothing for my store. sigh: But that is only one afternoon. The rest will be good food, and playing.

Feeling so unconnected right now. I haven't done anything special ritual-wise in months. Hopefully after I get home, I can get back in the swing of things.
I think it's because summer is so overbearing here. I don't want to be outdoors, I want Fall, I feel more spiritually connected from Samhain-Beltane. Summer is not my time.

I want rain.

Sorry for the blue post. I don't really feel blue! Fun tidbit- The day before we were really sure about the pregnancy I went to http://www.free-tarot-reading.net/ for a reading and got three pertaining messages "stressful money" "talk to the main man in your life" and "unplanned pregnancy!":

I like that site!

Hey Bella! We must be in the same place right now. I've totally felt : for the last month or so. Unconnected is exactly the word for it. I pretty much just about missed Lammas, except that I popped in here and was reminded :

Because I haven't been around, I haven't gotten to say Congrats on : #3!

So you're heading out this way for the weekend, huh? I'm not that far from LA...

[midstreammama]

Bella~ hope you get connected again soon, that was some tarot reading!

I would love to see California...maybe someday.

I went and actually bought the circle round book today. usually i would rely on what i could find on the internet but, i happened to be at the bookstore and there it was staring me in the face, so i got it. very interesting, so much information...i'm so glad i got it!

[ChristyM26]

Bella - I decided to try out that tarot site and I'm surprised at how accurate it seems. It keeps talking about real estate (we're supposed to close on our house mid-September) and tackling two life events at once. I have some guesses as to what that could be but at least it lifted my spirits a bit. Some good things should be coming.

[fullofgrace]

Originally Posted by Bella Babe

Fun tidbit- The day before we were really sure about the pregnancy I went to http://www.free-tarot-reading.net/ for a reading and got three pertaining messages "stressful money" "talk to the main man in your life" and "unplanned pregnancy!":

I just tried this one now and it absolutely confirmed the other readings AND was even more clear about what I need to do for myself.

Thanks again for this link!

[GoldBerry]

Originally Posted by midstreammama

Salvia~ I love your signature! The pictures are awesome. I am kinda missing your nature pics that you have posted every so often....

How sweet! : Ask, and you shall receive!

I don't have many new pics of the garden as the heat kind of took the pretty out of it, but here are a few:

Mud Pie

my knight in her castle

the girls and dh at the beach

Sweet things!

Yum, picked blackberries last night and blueberries this morning!

[13moons]

Great pictures Salvia! I love Sweet things and Mud Pie! I really enjoy seeing your pics too. Thanks for posting them.

[heket]

Originally Posted by Salvia

Yum, picked blackberries last night and blueberries this morning!

I'm jealous!

The pics are fabulous!

[Emmama]

Bella Babe~I hope you have a good weekend! That link was great...never thought I could get an accurate reading online, but it was dead on.

Thanks for posting the pics Salvia, I enjoy them too.

I am feeling disconnected, too. I feel that I am a pretty laid back person, but right now I feel like I have no control over anything in my own life. It is getting to the point that I feel like I am being puppeted. It is not a good feeling; it is like everything is falling apart around me. I have no idea how to get back to normal. This is part of why I have not been on here as much...my method is not working though.

[wombatclay]

Me too Bella Babe! That link was wonderful...I don't generally like "online" readings, but I was really impressed. I too got a few cards suggesting pregnancy...now if only early preg symptoms didn't match "living in a heat wave with a toddler" symptoms so well!

Have a great trip!

[13moons]

Originally Posted by Emmama

I am feeling disconnected, too. I feel that I am a pretty laid back person, but right now I feel like I have no control over anything in my own life. It is getting to the point that I feel like I am being puppeted. It is not a good feeling; it is like everything is falling apart around me. I have no idea how to get back to normal. This is part of why I have not been on here as much...my method is not working though.

Emily, I'm sorry, hon. I do think we all go through periods where we feel disconnected and like we are barely keeping things together (or sometimes not at all). I'm sure you are quite exhausted and run-down right now too which helps nothing. ((hugs)) Your dh will be home soon, right? (This month is it?) Maybe that will help you get back to normal?

[13moons]

Okay, update with dh and the job thing. I just typed a huge long email about it to a dear unsuspecting friend: so I should be able to give you an abridged version. In a nutshell, the news was not as good as we hoped but it certainly wasn't bad. Basically he is right now doing a job on a temporary basis that would be a promotion for him and we were hoping they were coming to tell him they wanted to put him into it on a permanent basis. Really they have no reason not to do it, and every reason to do it since he does a kick-ass job at it but they passed him over for it once for a guy that messed evrything up and stole too so we are braced for the possibility that that could happen again. Yesterday they told him they wanted him to accomplish two other things in the next 30 days and then they should give him the job permanently which is good, plus they made no mention of looking at other people for the job so we are happy about that. It just stings a bit because he has done so much already that he has proven himself , so to speak, 10 times over and there should be no question. But whatever. So that's where we are at and now have the possibility of really good news in 30 days.

[wombatclay]

13moons...that's good news! Making him jump through more hoops stinks (and sounds a bit like a "once bitten twice shy" reaction on their part) but still. Yay! I hope the really REALLY good news comes sooner than expected.

[MamaFae]

Been a while since I have made it over here to this thread! This crazy summer is about to finally slow down for me. After the babywearing conference that is!

I am in need of some advice though. It turns out that I have to have a hysterectemy (sp?) at the end of September. I have been feeling seriously sad about this. The end of my childbearing ability, even though I am 100% certain I am done with pregnancy and babies, I am still sad at this impending loss.

What can I do? How can I bring closure to this part of my mother phase? Any ideas? I had thought of asking the doc for my uterus and doing some sort of ritual. But, I am at a loss of what to do. I am not close to being a crone yet, and everything I have found in books or online talks about that transition.

Thanks for any ideas!

Oh and a Blessed Lammas to all!

[midstreammama]

13 moons~ That certainly is good news!!

mamafae~I think asking for your uterus is a good idea. You could do a blessing and bury it in a very special place. I would think, the same way as a placenta...since they both sustain life...


Good Luck in whatever you figure out.

[GoldBerry]

13moons~ I agree- if it's not bad news, it's good news. But, on the other hand, I would be frustrated faced with that situation. Sometimes it feels like bosses take for granted the good workers- not flashy, but good and honest. (Of course, your dh might be flashy- what would I know? : ). Hopefully, the two things he has to complete are not too much to ask. Sounds like the job is his, really.

mamafae~ I'm sorry to here about your hysterectomy, but thank the goddess for your three children(which I'm sure you do). I will look some more for rituals, but I agree that burying your uterus with honor and thanks. Blessed is your womb!

Emmama~ honestly, I think I have a week of feeling lost and crappy every couple weeks. I've tried to figure it out, but I can't. Mostly now, I just try to take it easy on myself- try,try,try not to yell- ride it out really. Having sex seems to help me. TMI- sorry. I also phase in and out on how tuned in I am to spiritual/nature stuff. Not great advice- but I'm there with ya.

Glad you all liked my silly pics! :

[LeBoof]

yay! I'm finally able to get to this thread I'm definitely subbing...

I live in the same state as Bella Babe and I honestly think it's the heat that takes it out of you during the summer. We've had rain off and on here, but it just doesn't seem to really be enough. It just makes things muggy. Either that or there's something going on with the energies around here. I've had kind of a bad summer myself so that probably doesn't help. I'm also getting over the crud on top of it so my moods not great.:

MamaFae, we're having to try for another little one quick. Dr's orders...then I get to go through a partial hysterctomy myself. I don't know if they'll let you have your uterus, but it's certainly worth asking about. I like the idea of finding a place to bury it and doing a ceremony. Maybe even planting something over it. I'm not sure I'm willing to give up the idea of being a "momma" just yet though. I think that I may just do something to celebrate being a mom to the kid(s) I have and maybe being considered an "earth momma". I'm not sure yet...hehe. If you figure it out please let us know.I'd love to hear what you can come up with. There should be something out there for mom's who are too young for croning, but going through a life change like this.

We didn't do much for Lugnasa yesterday. The flu kind of stopped us from doing much this week. A friend did make some cookies for all of us yesterday though Sugar teacake cookies using a diabetic safe recipe (he is diabetic and wanted some too). They were good, I just couldn't eat many of them.

LeBoof

[Millie Ivy]

LeBoof! Where are you? the humidity here ain't nothin compared to Indy, let me tell you. I grew up on Lake Michigan, and THAT, my friend, is humidity. But I get your point. Unless you are in Houston, then you do get the sweaty humidity...:

That tarot site is incredible isn't it? I am just learning so I got on the list to get educational emails. Every week she sends a description/explanation of one card. What to look for, what it can mean, etc. Very educational. The first card discussed was the Fool, I can't remember which one I read yesterday. Pregnant brain already.

Totally starting to pop out a belly already too. Not baby really, just belly knowing whats coming I guess. But I just feel dumpy, not pregnant yet. I am also not having morning sickness anymore! For the time being at least! YAY! But with the feeling like I look fat I told my dh he had to tell me I am beautiful and have lots of sex with me. lol He didn't seem to mind. (BTW THAT has been lots of fun the past two weeks. OMG.)

Heket- Where are you!???!?! How close to L.A. are you? I will be staying in the Valley, because my brother is housesitting for an actor he has worked with, but I will be in L.A. alot over the weekend. If you are close maybe we could meet for coffee or something? I don't know if Scott works this weekend at all so I might have time to kill on my own even.
PM me!

[GoldBerry]

Originally Posted by LeBoof

I'm not sure I'm willing to give up the idea of being a "momma" just yet though. I think that I may just do something to celebrate being a mom to the kid(s) I have and maybe being considered an "earth momma".

I've been thinking about this and I think you are exactly right! Just because a woman has no more babies certainly doesn't mean they stop mothering! With young children in our nests, we have many years to come in that role!

That said, it is an important transition and should be honored. I did some searching for rites of passage, but they all go from marriage/birth to crone. I'll keep looking or should we make up our own ceremony?

"We are the women we have been waiting for. Together, with open minds and hearts, we can learn to shape chaos and human needs into works of great power and beauty."
~Ruth Barrett Women's Rites, Women's Mysteries

[wombatclay]

Maybe a ritual centered around moving from a "physically fertile" mother to a "creatively fertile" mother? Like Athena being the protectress of mothers and children but being physically virginal herself? Or Aphrodite having only one child but being the patroness of love and fertility otherwise?

Other cultures have similar Goddess aspects too...like Brigid being a protectress and source of creativity and hospitality, the foster mother to Christ (in later Christian adaptations of her aspect), but not a "physically fertile mother".

I'm forgetting who wrote about this (Shekhinah Mountainwater maybe?) and my memory is a bit jumbled but I read somewhere a four-fold analysis of the Goddess (rather than a three fold analysis) which included a "Dark Maiden". I think she was addressing the role of women who are obviously no longer young girls (the traditional "virgin") but who are not yet interested in or embodying the "mother" aspect. It makes sense as women live longer healthier lives now that there should be a stage between physically reproductive mother and crone since many women leave phsycial reproduction behind (hysterectomy, advanced PCOS, early menopause, ZPG support, etc) well before they feel the call to toe crone!

Whatever happens, MamaFae I hope you find healing in the surgery and after!