Hi there, this is my secong attempt to replying to these threads for I am new to these kinds of forums, I'm not used to sending any messages like this. Lol.
I am a proud single mom of two, aged 2 and 8, they are quite a handful, more so then normal children may be, I am 33 years old my bday lands on June 20th 1975~my oldest is Dec.1st 1999~my youngest is June 18th 2006. I have been researching on many topics relating to crystals and indigos and finding many resaons to believe that we are crystals born into the world by other crystals, and maybe indigos? I have just started my research a couple days ago and to my surpirse after carrying so many unanswered questions and wondered if I was really beginning to go insane or that these may be the 1st signs of madness, lol, seriously. It was a very emotional moment for me following many of the stories I have come across so far. I have encountered many obstacles thru my years many I know that should have claimed my life. So why am I still here? Between my children that mean the world to me, who show alot of signs they may indeed be either indigo or crystal themselves, Im not sure how to recognize it, but they do have very many capabilities and are very high maintence and high energy children more so from any other children I have ever met. Other's who don't understand us have considered me to treat them for ADHD, something I have thought of it, but I am not supportive of that at all nor believe to offer drugs to innocent children that could be damaging to their health, I know in my heart there is much more to this than what others see and who tend to always prejudge me before they ever meet me, and find me very intimidating which is not accomodating to me who want's more then anything to develop friends, which I had had hard times trying to succeeed at for many yeras. Much like my oldest child who has hard times in school or trying to develop friends and who has had fallen behind in speech and language as well as slower at developing many other tasks as regular children who only needs more attention in class to help him succeed. I personally don't think there's enough in our classrooms these days which makes it difficult to follow through adding more stress upon the children unfairly. Being a single mom makes it that much more difficult to understand if you cannot relate. I am looking for others out there to net~work with who also are parents and can share their experiences with me and may be help me determine which of who they are, I truly believe in my heart that we are born crystals. If not, more so that I may be. I'm not sure if this reply will ever reach out to you all, but I have tried twice now and no luck, so I signed in again hoping this will finally work, usually things in my life are always relative to the number "3" for some strange reason.
I have so much to say, I am not sure where to begin and where I should start, I know I do want to write a book, most of my life revolved being artistically inclined to writing and reading skills that has progressed from an early age, naturally. I have a need to help or support others, I have also had noticed through my life I have been shut out and more like an outcast to society as well as a feeling of being between two worlds that refuse to accept me within a world which seems to be spinning out of control alot faster lately. I have felt this vibration of the earth spinning out of control this way for many years now and after reading other materials on this has brought this to reality today which I have found to be very disturbing. I also noticed how magnetically drawn people have been to me in crowds which I am very sensitive to and I would like to avoid, other's I'm close to have also noticed these things while out with me. I have been told many times by those who don't understand me or who dont know me and suddenly tell me that I have dark mysterious eyes that are black and very hypnotic, that have an endless deep stare to them which draws people away and who find me very intimidating and have described this as distrubing. I've doubted them since I cannot see what they seem to see and this is not my intention to draw others away unless I'm feeling threatened but for some odd reason trying to figure out who they really are whether they are a threat or not,, but has made me curious about why after hearing the comments so often.Most of my time I am off in my own world amongst society minding my own business to only find that I cannot feeling i stand out in the crowd to ooften. I have found I cannot be in over crowded places or able to tolerate high pitched noises I am very senstive to. I can also pick people out in the crowds that would tend to be very 'aggressive' or that could tend to have a negative vibe they carry drawing my energy from them if I'm stuck in their presence for a period of time only wishing I hadn't been there in the first place with a feeling of being threatened for an unknown reason which is also dirturbing and uncomfortable, but placing them without knowing who they are. It's been an abilty for years being able to pick people out. I have also had re-curring dreams that have made me to believe that it's another life~time I am living that I encounter and maybe a reason to believe it's a training process of some kind. I don't want others to say that i am paranoid becuase I know this to be the truth and only speak of the truth many would claim i am going crazy or out of my mind, but I cannot tell what these dreams are trying to tell me knowing they are portraying some kind of strong messages that I want to share more informationn about. I dream in color, always have, I can recall smells and clearly remember the faces of people and thier voices including clear surroundings..it's made me wonder "why" since it has been a part of who I am for many years since my childhood that of which I have overcome many barriers. To which has brought me here looking for more answers. If anyone can come forward and share any experiences with me that would be very much appreciated for I now realise there's many others out there nationwide that I am willing to share mine with as well. Thank You.