I had my first appt. today, and it was not very good
: I really didn't click with the midwife, or anyone else in the office - it was very disappointing, and my mood swings must be kicking in because I cryed all the way home.
I was feeling so good about it - both midwives at this practice came highly recommended by the nurse that gave dh & I a tour of the maternity center at the hospital we'll deliver at, and they are midwives, right, they should be all into listening to you and not just going by the little wheel to determine birthdate, etc, right?
The staff just didn't seem very friendly, and when the lady came in to take my blood pressure etc (not the midwife, the tech(?)), she started going for the wheel and I said, well, actually, I ovulate later than day 14, and she pretty much just ignored that. The midwife is just not my style, and maybe that's kind of frivilous, but this is someone I'm going to be seeing for the next nine months and need to be able to trust and be very comfortable with. And I'm just not. When I first met her, I already had been asked to put the little paper gown on (except they were out of the gowns, so I got a little vest and a drape
: ), and she had a limp handshake and just started baraging me with random questions - no how are you, who
are you.... When I mentioned again that I chart my cycles and know that I ovulated later, and that I had brought my chart with me if she wanted to see it, she didn't really seem that interested. And when she asked if I had any questions (mind you, I'm still sitting up on the table in this flimsy little paper thing - not exactly the most comfortable or equal kind of situation), I said I did, but could I ask them when I was dressed? She said fine, but the "office" that we went to after the exam was not a private office - there were constantly people in and out grabbing charts, etc. I just didn't feel comfortable asking all my questions - and she would say "ask me anything" "that's what I'm here for", but it was one of those things where you don't really feel like it's true.
And the other thing is that I've assumed that I've had a yeast infection on and off for the past three months & have gone to my family doc about it, tried diflucan twice and it hasn't gone away. She examined me once & said that yes there was yeast. Well, the midwife today said that I have bacterial vaginosis. Which I read in one of my books is somthing that needs to be treated because it can cause miscarraiges. She said it should be fine, that lots of women get them, and this early it shouldn't cause a miscarriage - she gave me a prescription for some meds that she said would be safe. So please send me some healthy, sticky baby vibes - I'm kind of scared.
So anyway - thanks for letting me vent. I'm feeling pretty sad and not knowing what to do. I don't know if it's kosher to ask to meet the other midwife in the practice to see if I click any better with her (thoughts??). NE Ohio is not a good area for AP stuff - I posted in the finding your tribe forum for anyone that might have recommendations for a good midwife that would be able to deliver at the hospital. I don't know how all that works and am worried that I'm going to be stuck with this one.
On the good side, she said everything looks fine, and that the infection shouldn't be a problem. I'll get to go in for an ultrasound in 4 weeks to determine the age and then back for an office visit the next week to hear the heartbeat (hopefully!). She also ordered an hcg screen today and another next friday since I've had some spotting, just to make sure the numbers are doubling like they should. I'll be really relieved if those are ok.
Thanks again for letting me vent