Originally Posted by spyder
For those of you who have had VBAC's esp HBAC's, does it help to further the healing process. I thought I was done, esp right after the c sect, but find myself wanting to be pregnant again, wanting another baby (obviously after some more time passes). I've always felt confident in the birth process, did any of you find yourself very nervous attempting it after the c sect?
1. I wanted a "do-over" immediately. It's taken a long time to know within myself that this second child isn't a "second chance to get it right" or anything, but a person who is dearly wanted in my family.
2. Being pregnant again has meant upheaval for me--the huge emotional risk of trying for a VBAC and reviewing my first experience all over again. I finally got my labor and surgical records recently, and it led to a couple of sleepless nights, and long tearful discussions with dh. But we did work through it; I'm back to feeling "normal" just with a bit more information.
3. About "trusting birth"--I found some insight in reading Birth as An American Rite of Passage--that maybe my reaction to having been "told" that I can't birth was to completely change the way I react to mainstream American culture (thus began my path to crunchiness, mixed with other reasons too). I have never doubted my ability to give birth--everything else changed because of the paradox of having a c/s. I have also discovered an old book: Pregnant Feelings by Rahima Baldwin (of Special Delivery)--It's in the same vein as Birthing From Within, focused on helping you to work on birth-trust and body-trust issues.
ICAN is great. There's also a new kind of group starting up- http://www.trustbirth.org/main/ maybe there is one near you?