Originally Posted by Christi
Since you have experienced it all what were the differences you noticed? Did you have a lot more power during your natural birth?
I wanted to have completely unmedicated births because I thought it was better for my babies.
they were both such powerful experiences. I have a good feeling that drugs would have dulled the whole thing.
Thank you for asking. The differences in my 3 births....Hmmm. I am going to try to be absolutely honest here at the risk of flames, which at this point I really don't care about.
First of all I must preface all of this by saying that I don't have the distrust of the medical field like a lot of people here do. Two of my sisters are RNs. My oldest sister has been practicing since 1969 and the other since 1977. \
With my oldest DD, I had a more typical labor in that I had gradual contractions that I couldn't even feel. When we went to the hospital in the middle of the night, they were still very faint. At some point they got more strong and I found that the best position was on my hands and knees.
I had the option of an epidural with DD1 and I knew that I wanted it so I got it. It was fantastic. I had no problems BFing her. My mother was there, along with my sister. My mother had 7 children with no pain relief at all, and she was there for the epidural birth, where I felt nothing but pushed DD out perfectly. Her response was "THAT'S that way to have a baby!" It was a wonderful experience. I have nothing but good feelings about it.
With the twins, I don't have such good feelings. My water broke at 6:30 AM at 36 weeks (fairly normal for twins) and I called my doctor's answering service which told me to go to the hospital. I thought I had all the time in the world. : )
I had no contractions at all. DH asked if he could run to the office (this was a Wednesday) and he said if he talked to the chairman of his department, he could be off until Monday). I said "Sure!" and got into the shower, no contractions.
In the shower (come to find out that hot water brings on contractions), my body went from zero contractions to every other minute), and I was home alone with my two zero old.
DH got home quickly after my phone call and I was in so much pain that I couldn't even speak to him. On the way to the hospital (the entire 6 miles), I went through transition, the worst moments of my life, except for the foregoing moments at the hospital.
Then at the hospital, they were doing construction, so DH couldn't park in front of the hospital with DD. He had to park a ways away and then give me to a volunteer with a wheelchair. That poor man.....
The only position that was tolerable to me was on my hands and knees. But I had to get into the stupid wheelchair to get into the hospital. When I got to the delivery room, I was already 10 cms.. The nurse who was getting me undressed (while I was on my hands and knees) said "Does it feel better when you push?" and I tried pushing and said "Yes!"
So I was already 10 cms, and dilated. DH barely got there. The best description that I can give of my feelings at the time were despair. Not only was the pain completely killing me but I also knew that with twins, I had to do it again. I am a stoic person with pain, but not that day. I screamed for God, Jesus, anyone to help me.
The fact that the pain was so fast and so furious may explain my reaction and resulting feelings, but maybe not. All that I remember is how scared I was and how hellacious the pain was. I am educated in birthing. As I said, my sister used to be an OB nurse, and I educated myself. But this was so fast and so scary that it felt like my body was being exploded with pain.
Finally DD was pushed out. But there was no relief for me psychologically because I knew that DS had to be pushed out too. But he was breach. So they did an epidural. Try to sit still for an epidural when you are having 10 CM contractions. I defy anyone. It was a miracle, but at that point I was willing to do anything to reduce the pain.
Unlike with DD1, this epidural didn't take away the pain. I found out out later from the nurses that evidently it took away some pain because the doctor had his entire hand inside of me turning DS around. But I still felt the contractions.
So there came a time where they told me to push DS out. I pushed and his cord came out first: cord prolapse. A very deadly complication, but fairly common with twins. We only had moments to get me in to the OR to have an emergency C-section.
Honestly, I thought the C-section would be worse than it was, but that doesn't mean it wasn't painful. The staples were very painful. It was very difficult to move at all until they were removed. The pain from the C-section was enormous, but at least I had pain meds to help, while I was dealing with taking care of twin DD and my two year old at home, with DS in a hospital on a respirator 1.5 hours away.
The panic and pain of DD's birth have never left me. Some people say that you forget the pain of childbirth. I will never forget that pain and panic. It was in no way a spiritual or love-filled experience.
That's the truth.