another round :(

[Azreial]

Well I'm back in the ppd club 3 pg and 3 boughts of ppd : Its coming on hard this time. I'm sure its becuase of the c/s, having preemies, the nicu stay, the stress of 3 under 2 etc.

I've been in therapy since the ppd started after dd. I have an appmnt for meds next week

I just feel so down and lonely and overwhelmed, detached, worried, anxious, worthless like a burden, and well depressed :

[Gem'sMama]

I really am so sorry you are feeling this way again . It sounds like you have definitely been through a lot with the birth of your twins, and you are keeping up with two other children too. It is no wonder you are feeling overwhelmed, worried, and anxious.

At least you are ahead of things though because you already have a therapist and are starting meds soon. After the birth of my daughter, I didn't recognize the signs of PPD. I just thought I was some kind of freak for feeling the way I did. None of my family understood what was going on either. They thought it was just the baby blues and that I was having a little trouble adjusting. It took a long time for me to figure out and admit that I needed help, way too long really. Even when I did decide to reach out, it took a bit longer to find the help I needed. I can't tell you how much I regret the time I wasted being so sick. I wish I could go back in time and get help sooner. So please don't feel like a burden. You are getting help, and that is the absolute best thing you can do for you and your little ones.

I wish so much I could wave a magic wand and make you feel better. That is what I so desperately wanted when I was in the depths of this. I just wanted someone to make it all go away right now, not tomorrow or next week, but NOW. You've gotten through this twice before and I am sure you will again. You are in my thoughts.