I don't have a contract. I've decided that I'll give them my notice in November and tell them I'll stay till Xmas break. UNLESS I just can't live through this anymore! It'll be tough because dh is student teaching and doesn't have an income. Family is supportive, thank goodness. I'd leave now except that I really worry about my students. I've gotten attached to some of them.
If they ever get around to giving me a contract, I'm going to go ahead and tell them that I don't intend to stay past Xmas, and deal with the consequences. I just don't think I can sign it in good conscience.
We have evaluations coming up, and I feel guilty having them go through all that (and also having to go to all that effort myself) only to quit. I wanted to tell them that I was quitting before evaluations, but dh thinks they'd make my life even worse if they knew I was bailing on them. What do you guys think??? Tell them now and risk being let go right away or being treated like sh*t till Xmas, or wait til the 1st of November???
I worry about whether they'll find a good biology teacher for my students.
Editing to add: I just realized it's been exactly 2 weeks since my 1st post. Amazing how things have come to this point in such a short time... At this point it's mainly because my own 2 kids are suffering as a result of my absence:
*dd (3) sleeps with me but won't let dh near her in the bed and if he tries to cover her, she screams "NO! Mommy cover me up! No Daddy!!!"
*dd is having a hard time when the family is together, she hardly sees us together and it's like she gets overloaded (she's a high-intensity kid anyway)
*dd can't let me out of her sight when I'm home and she falls asleep on the couch waiting for me at night
*ds (1) has a bruise on his eye right now from falling at daycare
*ds isn't able to nap at daycare and is exhausted all the time
*ds is getting "unattached" from me - I don't think it would have happened had I not gone to work... he's more attached to dh now and won't cosleep with me
*and the worst... ds started walking and I didn't realize it for 2 days!
I can't keep doing this to my babies - I could go on but it would just be to justify my decision. They look awful and I don't think they feel well.. they're always sick... Is that normal for kids in daycare full time? I just don't think we're ready for this... And I know I'm not meant to be a high school teacher - I admire those of you who stick with it and feel it's your calling, I honestly don't know how you do it!!!!