I just wanted to vent to people who'd understand. I have a 3 1/2 yo dd and a 1 1/2 yo ds. Dh says we're done (He doesn't think we make enough money, etc.- I mean, who says you have to pay for 100% of their college anyway, doesn't having to work for things build character?). Anyway, I've always felt that there's another one out there who's suppose to be mine. Does that make sense? It's like I'm missing one. When I look at my kids, I feel like there's another one, sleeping upstairs, or something. Or when we go out somewhere and I do a head count, it's like I panic for a second because I'm missing one. Anyway, I ovulated the past couple of days, and dh withdrew, so I know there's no way I could be pg. (well, there's always a chance with withdraw, I can always hope!!!) Anyway, I just went to the bathroom and my cm is changing from fertile ewcm to dry. I know that I missed my chance this month. I know I'm not pg, and will probably never be again. It's seriously breaking my heart. Now, I just have to wait for AF to show up. Dh is so funny though, b/c even though he says he doesn't want another one, I joke about me totally molesting him and not letting him up when it's time to withdraw and he just laughs and says "oh, yeah?!" So, maybe I will try that next time!
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9/7/06 at 3:51pm