PALS Here! - Page 3

[Lizzo]

Originally Posted by Willzmama

Hang in there, Chrissy! If they said you are right on track - ! What's the next step for you?

I am right behind you, have an u/s Monday and I'm trying to have some optimism. But I barely have any preg symptoms. Granted, I am a mere 5w3days...

Lizzo - Good for you for saying no to the u/s if it's too early to be helpful to you anyway.

Oh I am so lame mama!!! I CAVED! And went!!!! And the U/S tech was like "You were right...this is stupid to have one now b/c at 5 weeks 4 days (I ACTUALLY was 5 weeks 2 days, but you know their stupid pregnancy DD calculators...EVERYONE O's at CD 14!) I porbably wont see ANYTHING, certainly not an ectopic!"
BUT...there was something. A little sac with a little yolk. Perfectly perfect and perfectly normal.
But of course, they want another in 10 days. HELL NO. And the u/s sound tech was like "Don't. You don't want to and there is no reason to."
BUT there was blood in my uterus. Not a lot and u/s tech siad she doesn't usually tell womyn if there is any. I saw it, it was not a lot. But my risk of m/c is higher. But the u/s tech said that she sees it all the time and it is normal.
I am happy. And so done with these OBs! And I am REALLY readyf or it to be the 2nd trimester...or at least 9 weeks 9I lost my last baby at 8 weeks)

[RobynFSU]

I'm having an u/s done at my 1st mw visit Thursday. I'll be 6w 5d so I'm hoping to see a heartbeat. Never went for the repeat beta. They wanted me to come in and discuss weaning my dd to protect this preg : since I disagreed with the nurse on the phone (NOT EVER going back to that practice) so I skipped out and called my new mw instead.

[NocturnalDaze]

Hi everyone! This is my first post about my pregnancy. I hope I'm not jinxing myself. I had a m/c at 12 weeks at the beginning of June. So, now I have to get through the whole first trimester before I can even begin to feel safe. I have a feeling that I still won't feel comfortable until I'm actually holding a newborn in my arms.

The worst part of all is having to repeat the 1st trimester all over again. *sigh* I have become a crazed lunatic in the last week. I think I need to move to a hotel for the next 7 weeks

[Willzmama]

I hear you, Kim, about repeating the first weeks again. This is my 4th time being newly pregnant - and it shows! I never lost the 20 lbs. from my 2 m/cs in the past year. My poor body doesn't know what the heck is going on. I attempted to go to Weight Watchers over the summer and I just wasn't there, KWIM? I want to be pregnant and have another baby! I don't want to keep track of friggin' POINTS!

Lizzo, that's pretty funny that you ended up getting the U/S. Glad it was reassuring for you. Me, I want INFO. If this one isn't happening, I want to know ASAP. No more wasted weeks believing I'm having a baby if it ain't happenin'. BTDT! Twice! I realize it might be too early tomorrow to see much in the u/s but I'll take what I can get.

Wow, ewins24, you've gotten dehydrated already this time around? You poor thing!

Chrissy, what a great idea to get acupuncture.

[momz3]

Hey there. I'm in Shantell, mom of 3. We just had our daughter in May who was stillborn to uterine rupture and placenta abruption. She was a beautiful little angel at 39 weeks, 7 lbs 11 oz and a FULL head of curly hair. While we were crying and mourning her, she looked so peaceful, like she was sleeping. I talked to her, told her how beautiful she was and how much we'd miss her. She stayed in our room for a few hours and then we turned her over to the funeral home who would help us w/our services.
Do to a small pelvis, I've had 3 c sections. That significantly increases my chances for rupture and abruption. In rage , when we found out she passed away, I told the attending physician I wanted my tubes tied. I didn't know what I was saying, of course. I signed the consent and went in for my c section. I was given a general anesthetic (to help with the grief) but when they pulled her out, I was wide awake. No way was I going to sleep through seeing her for the first time. She was so beautiful..so sweet...I passed out again...and woke up in recovery. My husband was there...and told me the docs couldn't tie my tubes because I had a rupture and they were running around like chickens with their heads cut off trying to figure out whether to give me a hysterectomy or to save it. He, the attending doc (mine was on vacation) decided I was too young to let this happen, and saved it. A few hrs later, he came in, told me about what he found (not gonna go into much detail because its a bit hard) ...she did indeed suffocate from lack of oxygen. He also apologized for not being able to tie my tubes...and all I could do is cry, and say "Thank you."
She had a beautiful memorial service. We were very fortunate as the military paid for her services. My husbands commander, 1st sgt and staff sgt came to see me in the hospital to deliver flowers (from them each) and attended the service... I wasn't able to be there, because I was still hospitalized for unexplained fever and chills. (probably some sort of infection).
We miss her so much. We go out to visit her often and talk to her. She's in "Baby Land" (thats what they call it for toddlers and babies who are buried there) and it is SO beautiful. We are now awaiting her headstone and we will be complete.
We love her and miss her so much. And we Thank God each and ever day for atleast allowing her to be a part of our lives.We were able to feel her every kick...she even played with DH a few times...I got to feel her hiccups..we were lucky to be able to be with her for 9 months. We don't know why babies get taken away from us, we can't explain it, but now, they hurt no more and is safe from all harm. Now we are pregnant with #4. I know this baby is a gift from her and God...I know she wanted a little brother or sister. I feel her here with me, telling me everything will be fine. I know that she will be with me when I give birth. It will be a very emotional, sad BUT happy time and I am looking forward to it.
Thank you for letting me share my story and I hope to meet great women in here.

Alexis Raquel

[aran]

Oh Shantell! I am so sorry that happened to you and your family and your sweet little girl. I can't imagine how hard that must have been, and still is. I so hope that your current pregnancy goes perfectly.

[chrissy]

oh Shantell, huge to you mama. i am so sorry that alexis didn't get to stay here on earth with you but i know that you are right that she is with you all the time.
alexis raquel

[Debstmomy]

Shantell, I wanted to welcome you to this group. What a beautiful story of your baby Alexis is. She is surrounded by love, that is for sure. I too am a Mama of a full term SB baby girl, named Alexa. Same intitial for the middle name too! Such coincidences. I am also due 5/07. Welcome to this group, we will walk this journey together.

[UrbanEarthMom]

Shantell,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss you experienced. What a terrible tragedy.

Having another baby is a tremendous leap of faith for you in particular. I admire your courage.

Wishing you well,
Mary

[Willzmama]

to you, Shantell. Welcome to our PALS thread!

[Willzmama]

Over the weekend I had a mental conversation with this baby. I was asking it to give our family a chance. I told it about the great older brother it will have, that its mom and dad are great, although the rest of the relatives are a mixed bag...

I felt like I needed to ask it to stay with us. Of course last night I was mentally going over what I will do if my u/s on Thursday is bad news, picturing calling the OB who did my last D&C, going through all that again. It's so hard to balance being optimistic with trying to prepare myself for the worst.

How are you all doing?

[NocturnalDaze]

So, how's everyone doing? I'm almost at 8 weeks now so I've got atleast another 6 to go before I can start feeling good. I had an awful nightmare the other night that I m/c-ed again. I did feel good to wake up and realize it wasn't real though!

[UrbanEarthMom]

Hi Kim,

I had a miscarriage dream recently too - it seemed so real when I woke up I had to practically check.

I've had two miscarriages - I generally haven't blamed myself but I do wonder if stress has played a part. So when I get stressed I stress out even more because I'm stressed - crazy isn't it?

I am getting an nine week US on Monday - hopefully it will be good news.

Wishing you well.

Mary

[wanderinggypsy]

I"m actually due April 25 but I just know that this baby like my other two will come late, so it will be May. The very cycle before we concieved this baby I had a miscarriage. It traumatized me and for the first 10 weeks of this pregnancy I was compulsively going to the washroom to check for bleeding. I still check every now and then, even though I know everything is fine. (I can even feel a bit of movement now, and we've heard the heartbeat twice).

It's hard adjusting, but I think you just have to stay positive. It sounds cliche, but I think it's true. Good luck to everybody.

[Willzmama]

Hi all!
I'm glad this thread got bumped up. I'm hanging in there. I've had two u/s and we've seen the heartbeat. I was graduated from the repro clinic where I had a slew of tests done over the summer. So I'm supposed to see my midwife tomorrow and hopefully get another u/s to make sure I've successfully passed my 8w m/c hurtle. I definitely have some preg symptoms but I've been fooled before so I'm totally in need of some reassurance.

to you all.