rainbowsmum, i'm sorry you have to deal with this at this point in your pregnancy. i hope you can find the strength and peace to have the birth that you and your baby deserve.
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9/16/06 at 10:38pm
We've agreed to be friends, because he is babies father, despite all his cold feet he will want to see her and she doesn't need the crap of me and him fighting and dissliking eachother, it would be unfair on her. And I would honestly miss him too much if I cut him totally out of my life as pathetic and stupid as that sounds, he means too much to me still, even after everything.
Maybe he did just make an error of judgement, who knows, for now at least we're friends which will allow me to heal, if anything was meant to happen for us then it will in time, I at least have to learn to trust him again before I could ever consider something between us happening. And if nothing ever does at least we're friends.
As for his "Its unfair for me to assume he would be the father" comment, that still makes my blood boil. But I'll give him time and see if maybe he will come to terms with things, he says he still wants to be hes just confused or something like that I don't know, but if there is a chance that he will come round and be there for her then I have to at least see. I grew up without a father, and while I survived and wouldn't want him in my life anyway (He didn't want me so I don't see why I should have wanted him there) there were times when I really needed him, and I'd like to think it would be better for my children. If worst comes to worst and he does bail 100% well then I'll do damage control then, I just have to make sure he doesn't do it a few years down the track when she's old enough to remember him.