My sincerest sympathy goes out to you. I thought I was the only mom around losing my sanity to isolation and my child. I too am in a town where I know no one. My son (7 mo) has surgeries every few months for his cleft lip & palate, which means I need to avoid getting him sick, which thus means I need to avoid other children. This, in turn, means that I stay home a lot of the time. By myself. I watch too much television, spend too much money ordering pizza when my husband has late nights at school, and spend too much time calling my mother back home in Ohio with not much to say but what ds' poop was like today. I spend lots of time being mad at dh, often for really lame reasons. The thing that keeps me afloat is... I really don't know. Some days are good because I feel accomplished by doing a load of laundry or going to the post office. Some days are bad because I feel my loneliness more intensely. I spend my time fantasizing about summer. Just know that spring is on its way. Light will come back into your life.
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4/4/03 at 4:06pm