We are into a new week already! This last week went faster than I thought it would. I am glad of that. Each day that passes is one more I don't have to worry about. I am a huge worrier at the beginning. 
Well, dh and I got lots of cleaning accomplished this weekend, unfortunately we still seem to have a really long way to go. Where is all this STUFF coming from? How was everyone's weekend?
I had a meeting with my ds's new lead therapist today and I want to fire the whole company that we are getting his services through. I was basically informed that they are stopping his therapy cold turkey, and that while they will be looking for therapists to replace the ones he lost, unless I make certain changes to our living environment (basically they are saying I need to move), they probably won't be able to find anyone who would be willing to work with him. I swear that if he loses his waiver funding because this woman is being outrageous in her expectations, I will sue the company for all they are worth!!! I wanted to throttle the woman. She was commenting on rediculous things like urine and feces exposure for the therapists since dd2 is still in dipes, and how I can't keep my books on the stairs, because a therapist could fall, and how the Purel hand sanitizer that we adults use most of the day, until we can get some burst pipes fixed, just isn't exceptable. Also we somehow need to make this place bigger so that there is solitary place for ds to recieve his therapy. As she was naming off each thing I was getting angrier and angrier. If we didn't have to complete 2 more months in order for him to be able to graduate to the post intensive phase of the program I would graduate him out right now and tell them where to stick it! Can you tell this really set me off today? Ok, enough venting from me.
I hope that this week goes by as quickly as the last week did. That was such a welcome surprise for me.
Well, dh and I got lots of cleaning accomplished this weekend, unfortunately we still seem to have a really long way to go. Where is all this STUFF coming from? How was everyone's weekend?
I had a meeting with my ds's new lead therapist today and I want to fire the whole company that we are getting his services through. I was basically informed that they are stopping his therapy cold turkey, and that while they will be looking for therapists to replace the ones he lost, unless I make certain changes to our living environment (basically they are saying I need to move), they probably won't be able to find anyone who would be willing to work with him. I swear that if he loses his waiver funding because this woman is being outrageous in her expectations, I will sue the company for all they are worth!!! I wanted to throttle the woman. She was commenting on rediculous things like urine and feces exposure for the therapists since dd2 is still in dipes, and how I can't keep my books on the stairs, because a therapist could fall, and how the Purel hand sanitizer that we adults use most of the day, until we can get some burst pipes fixed, just isn't exceptable. Also we somehow need to make this place bigger so that there is solitary place for ds to recieve his therapy. As she was naming off each thing I was getting angrier and angrier. If we didn't have to complete 2 more months in order for him to be able to graduate to the post intensive phase of the program I would graduate him out right now and tell them where to stick it! Can you tell this really set me off today? Ok, enough venting from me.
I hope that this week goes by as quickly as the last week did. That was such a welcome surprise for me.
: ) We have so much stuff that we don't need and no one wants that I have no choice but to toss things. He doesn't see it though. "We might NEED that some day." Some day may never come and I will NOT live under a pile of rubble just in case "some day" we might need one of these million things!
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Right now I am sitting in a filthy house and am too damn lazy to do anything. I have an hour and a half until dh gets home, so I better get BUSY. Poor kids are even benign neglected right now 
You are in my heart & thoughts every day. Wishing you love and healing, and all of us healthy baby vibes.
Ok, well the truth of the matter is - Yes. Typically if you are going to miscarry you do so in the first trimester. ITA with Jesi above though. The good news is: Everyone is paranoid right along with you! And for the bad news: It never ends! Even when your baby is 2 you'll still look at him or her and think "What if something happens to them?!" Someone use to have a sig on MDC that said: "Choosing to have a child means to have a piece of your heart outside of you walking around forever" or something much more eloquent than that. It's true, you really don't realize true vulnerability until you become a mother... Our love for our children makes us so vulnerable, but its the greatest thing in the world!!! :heart
ladies, just procrasinating my housework! 
