Well Here I am for my intro too... it's 11:50 pm and I got my daughter to bed by 9... lol I had planned on going right to bed but caught up lurking around the boards! lol
I must say I feel like I am a little out of place here. (i guess saying my age makes me feel a bit like a kid) I'm 22 and I'm expecting my second little surprise on June 5th. My first, dd Ellya (7/23/04) is a VERY sweet... and oddly well behaved 2 year old! lol quite reasonable even compared to some grown ups I know! lol. She's the kind of kid who screamed for the 1st 4 months and now can carry a toy around a store and put it away on the shelf when it's time to leave with out a fuss. Although, it seems she has picked the last 3 days to stop listening to me and start dumping water on the floor periodically but that is a different thread!
This pregnancy is a BIG surprise to say the least and comming at not the best of times. I'm happy about it, dont get me wrong, and I like the age difference in the two kids (i think lol) but my... hmmm what to call him, i guess Boyfriend of 4 years just recently (we're talking days) , well we had the dreadful talk where we think perhaps we should part ways. (my engagment ring is now back in it's box in my dresser drawer

) He's a great dad and I love him very much but i suppose there is just some thing about me that isn't enough for him. He's not content and I dont know what to do to fix it all.
He and I had a nice stay at home job as website managers with 9 employees under us. We had hired, trained, set up the website... we had done ALOT of work and out of no where we were fired with no explination and no pay. Things have been rough since. He has a WONDERFUL job now as the Senior Sales Director of a multi-sport/fitness club and he's making decent money for the first time, but when we lost our job we lost our day care and never found one we like and so I am back to stay at home mom... but i'm preggo and by no means am I Suzie-Home-maker to begin with so I'm having trouble keeping up with throwing up, a two year old and house work and then frustrated with a man who works 12 hour days and wants to play video games for an hour when he gets home and doesn't get why the house isn't perfect.
AHHHHHHHHH I'm sorry this turned into a huge rant but I guess this sums me up in a nutshell right now.... I only wanted two kids total... I just want to have a happy pregnancy this time around, instead I'm looking at single parenthood and apartments.
So June 5th, midwife, hospital, no pain meds, born in a circle... thats the plan.