red curly is bill's scared-of-getting-a-child-with-such-hair-color hair... both his sisters are red hair variants and very fair skinned (auburn red and strawberry blonde).
stefan is sleeping, my dad is napping and marek is playing happily with his legos while thomas the tank engine plays on the tv, so i have a few more minutes to write a note to you all.
on the freak outs, bill is working from home for the next two weeks. i don't know quite what that means our days will look like, but i am relieved. perhaps now that stefan is turning a month old (on monday!!! yipes!!! where did the month go?) some patterns will begin to emerge and i can better gauge each day's activities. mostly i just don't want to be alone at home with both of them for many hours each day since i know that makes me more edgy and prone to stress and anger and marek really likes the change of a different environment for a little while each day, too. bill asked me if i wanted him to go on family leave for the next two weeks but then told me that it probably wouldn't make sense for him to do that because people will be calling him anyway since he is the only one who knows the entirety of how this particular piece of software he's working on all works together. and if people are going to be calling him anyway, then why not get paid for working when you actually are working? i reminded him that he also needs to sleep because he becomes increasingly grumpy when he doesn't get enough, which means that he can't just shift his workday to 10pm-6am and expect to be helpful to me during the normal daylight awake times. we'll see how the beginning of the week goes...
stefan is feeling and looking bigger already, which i guess makes sense since he is turning a month old on monday. we'll probably find out just how much bigger sometime next week when we go to our midwife's office for our 4 weeks appointment. that's where the scale is that weighed him at birth. he's eating well and pooping and peeing plenty, and my milk seems to be sufficient so most days i'm not too worried. i do think about it at least once each day, though, and i wish i had a reliable and accurate scale accessible to me close by.
the drama of the two year old is going on at our house constantly as well. strong insistence of having what he wants right at that moment, excessive whininess, "pwease, pwease, pwease...", screaming, etc. etc... gaaaaaaaaaaah... i've tried acknowledging his feelings but he gets madder and more upset. i've tried redirecting and that seems to work best but not all the time. running out of tools to try, though. and bill and i have different methods of addressing the situations, which we know need to be more consistent but since we haven't found a successful way of dealing with it, we keep trying different things. also, the ways we keep trying don't feel quite right so i'm wondering what other things people do... perhaps i will peruse the gd forum a little...
okay, crackers keep ending up on the floor instead of in marek's mouth, so i'm going to go.
to my may mamas... mmf!