I am so sorry... I know that saying that doesn't take any of it away but I truly truly am... I can't help but cry. Not only for the fact that you lost your beautiful baby, but also for the way you were treated, some people have NO respect, especially with the pain you must be going through.
not from your DDC but I could not read and not reply... to you and your family. I am sorry that people are using this to feed into the fear of homebirth. It sound slike you really are in a good place yourself in spite of it all. please take care.