Jericho's birth (c/s and childloss) - Page 2

[bamamom]

I am so sorry for your loss. I cant imagine the stupidity of Doctors. Well, I can. B/c I've experienced it.

Your story made me weep.

[~Mamaterra~]

Thinking of you today Babs...

[sebarnes]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[unitytree]

You have inspired me in a way I can not explain. Your story, your pain...the truth and beauty of your choices. You and you family our in my thoughts, in peace and love, held with the utmost respect.
Thankyou for sharing, what a wonderous gift.

[jaxinsmom]

thank you for sharing your story. Even as I write this I sob and I feel an overwhelming desire to wake my son and hold him.
I am forever changed for having read your story.
Thinking of you often

[accountclosed3]

thank you for sharing your LJ story of Jerico's life with me. I was really moved by the whole story in a number of ways. But what struck me the most was how you stated that you wouldn't have chosen an abortion. I feel similarly, and i feel similarly about any number of 'complications' that could happen to the baby that i may have in the future.

people ask me why i would go unassisted, and there are many reasons, but they fear it because of the 'not knowing' and 'what ifs. . .' regarding that baby. I always felt that if i had a baby that was beyond help, then that would be ok--because every moment of that pregnancy would be that baby's life, and that is beautiful life, one full of meaning and purpose.

i'm going to read your new baby's story too now. thank you so much!

[aussiemum]

I am so sorry for the loss of your first son, mama. I kind of wandered into this thread in a roundabout way, but didn't want to not stop & offer a hug. ((((hug))))

[Kimcarrots]

your story was inspiring in more ways than one. thank you, thank you.
much love

[georgia]

Thank you so much for sharing your stories here. We're grateful

[crazyeight]

babs it was great to hear about the love that your FIRST son recieved even though he only spent a mere bit of time with you.

i was curious as to whether you had posted about your dreams and such that you talked about. i have always loved the insights you are able to get when your pregant with your kids and i hope that by reading more about him we can all carry a part of him so he does live on.

[grypx831]

I never told you this before because I can't think of a good way to phrase it, but I am going to try: Jericho's story made me understand UP/UC. I "get it" now. Even though his life was short he has touched more people than most who live decades. I think about him a lot because one of my middle names is "Jericha". I'll never forget him. He taught me a lot.

[~Yola]

I just wanted to tell you how Jericho's story helped me. I came across it somehow when I was in the midst of miscarrying my third babe, just before I conceived Indeo.

Reading your story made all the reasons I wanted to UC so clear in my head, and it gave me a starting point of what to learn about to prepare myself. I did A LOT of reading about breech birth, so I wouldn't be scared into going to the hospital. Mamma I am ever so glad that I did as both my Dh and I knew what needed to be done when I was crowning and discovered Indeo was breech, and neither of us were anything but calm. I'm especially thankful for that since I realized I would have been in the same hospital that caused you so much pain.

May Jericho live on in the hearts of all whom you have touched with this story.

Peace, Love and Light
~Yola

[littleteapot]

Thank you all... you have no idea how much these comments mean to me.

Originally Posted by dhinderliter

i was curious as to whether you had posted about your dreams and such that you talked about. i have always loved the insights you are able to get when your pregant with your kids and i hope that by reading more about him we can all carry a part of him so he does live on.

I only unprivatized one of my dreams on my journal, and that was the one I had very early in my pregnancy where I birthed him and he told me his name and what he would look like. When he was born looking just as he had in the dream I named him what he'd told me to. The other dreams I had I kept either on filters or completely private.

[JesseMomme]

Jericho's story will stick with me always, both sad and profoundly beautiful. Thank you again for sharing with the OL community.

[hipumpkins]

I jjust finished your story. It was beautifully written and so touching. Thank you for sharng it. I will always remember Jericho.

[mommyofboys3]

i just want you to know you are so strong...and thank you so much for sharing your story..you are so brave and courageous...i am so sorry for your loss and i think you did the right thing.. very few people would be so unselfish as to carry the baby with the thought that it will die...i can imagine how much you cherished every single day he moved and i am sure you feel lucky just to have carried him! girl you are something!!!! i couldnt imagine how hard it has been for you, curtis, and tempest...i felt so compelled reading your story and i couldnt stop it just pulled me in and put me right there with you...i not by choice have had 3 c sections and i hate them i can only imagine what you were going through...your treated like a case and not a person....my first son it was failure to progress and i wanted to VBAC and couldnt find anyone to do it not even a midwife so i was forced into a second and third c i so admire you for VBAC i wish i could...you are so strong and deserve a metal!!!!!
and i see you had another sweet baby in october congrats!!!

[Shanana]

There are no words, mama ... no words. I wept as I read this.

Thank you for sharing this story. It is beautifully written, and while immensely painful, it also shows your courage, strength and love. I was so happy to read about Xan's birth, and cried happy tears.

[GrammyMidwife]

from my heart to yours

I am new to cyberspace so just came across your story this pm. My heart was so touched and it brought back many memories of my daughter's birth. Sabre was also a c sec (the docs were discussing their hunting camp while they cut) She was born with hydrocephalus and spina bifida. She was shipped away in a snow storm to a large hospital where she stayed for 2 months and thankfully, despite being told otherwise, she survived(she is now 21!)What touched me so much was how you felt about not KNOWING and having a wonderful and uneventful pregnancy. I too opted not to have prenatal tests (Sabe was a planned homebirth) and I only agreed to us at 43 weeks when I could not feel her head in the pelvis and didn't want to do a 10# breech! The Dr told dh and I that she had no brain and wouldn't survive birth (wrong!!!)The road was hard,but the 40+ weeks we shared without a care were the best and enabled me to endure the H---that followed.Hugs to you and the memory of little Jerico!!

[eternamariposa]

I don't even know where to begin. I had already heard the story from my sister (altarflame) but hearing it firsthand from you is a thousand times more intense particularly after having had my first baby recently.
It is beautifully amazing that you gave Jericho such a loved exsistance. The circumstances are beyond any sort of explaination or condolance I could ever offer, but I can say that it is completely wonderful that he was so loved every moment of his life, inside and out.
I would never try to force my beliefs on you, but I believe that God sees something special, an exceptional capacity for motherhood, in you.
I wonder if perhaps so many people have followed your journal because one person can't cry all the tears that come from these kinds of heartaches and triumphs, the weight is too much.
Your UBAC was an extraordinary inspiration to my sister who had faced similar coldness and violations from hospitals during her previous C-sections and I think she is carrying your strength with her as she gets closer to meeting Elise. Thank you.

[littleteapot]

Originally Posted by eternamariposa

I don't even know where to begin. I had already heard the story from my sister (altarflame) but hearing it firsthand from you is a thousand times more intense particularly after having had my first baby recently.
It is beautifully amazing that you gave Jericho such a loved exsistance. The circumstances are beyond any sort of explaination or condolance I could ever offer, but I can say that it is completely wonderful that he was so loved every moment of his life, inside and out.
I would never try to force my beliefs on you, but I believe that God sees something special, an exceptional capacity for motherhood, in you.
I wonder if perhaps so many people have followed your journal because one person can't cry all the tears that come from these kinds of heartaches and triumphs, the weight is too much.
Your UBAC was an extraordinary inspiration to my sister who had faced similar coldness and violations from hospitals during her previous C-sections and I think she is carrying your strength with her as she gets closer to meeting Elise. Thank you.

Thank you for this, a lot. It means the world to me.
It is never forcing your beliefs to share your feelings, and I never mind that. I am thinking of your sister every single day.