ok, my body isn't failing me my doctors are, and birth experience.. - Page 2

[vloky]

update

my hospital file isn't even complete yet, my doctor has 30 days to complete it. We're going to have the doctor my son sees and who my boyfriend has seen since a child to request it when it's complete so we don't have to pay 15$ plus 60 cents/page for it. It turned out I was leaking urine out my vagina which they determined when they did a vcug, so monday they put a catheter in me which will be in for 2 weeks the urologist hopes it will relieve pressure so that my bladder can heal, if not I will have to quit breast feeding to take estrogen if that doesn't work I will have to have surgery, hopefully it is resolved before my medicaid runs out end of december. The night they put the catheter in we went to the e.r. because all that was coming out was dark red, they flushed my bladder out and a bunch of giant black blood clots came out. My urologist then came in and put in a larger catheter and flushed again and several more large clots came out one which clogged the tube and they had to remove it and reinstert it. They gave me 3 days worth of antibiotics. The catheter seemed to be doing the trick at first, no leakage out of my vagina, but each day its in seems to do less. Today hardly any urine at all has made it to the bag a lot is going into the pad and down the tubing, I don't know if maybe the catheter got pulled out a little or shoved in a little or what.. It's really frustrating though.

[rainbowmoon]

oh mama I hope this works/ resolves itself soon, and you can heal quickly

[Mrs_Hos]

Yes--request your records...go see another doctor...

I don't think your body failed you--the epi helped you relax and helped you dialate...up to that point, it was on track...
I'm guessing they told you when to push since you couldn't feel it and I'm thinking you may have pushed against a cervix with a lip or something and may have caused it to swell--any pushing after that would've only increased the problem. Then I'm also guessing you were flat on your back or at a slight incline making pushing more ineffective than if you could've squatted etc.

I'm no Dr or anything--but it would've been nice if INSTEAD of pit, they had turned your epi down low...then see if you could FEEL enough to stand and squat--or at least elevate a bit...then maybe you could've had more effective pushing. A c/s was the LAST resort--if baby was doing fine and you were too (except for being tired etc) it would've been better to let you rest...and see where your labor went--turn off the pit and see if you could've let your uterus and muscles rest and then try again ya know?
I pushed for 3 hrs--on my back... I was very close to a c/s also--and I'm annoyed that it got to that point.

As for your bladder/urethra/incontinence--It could just be the swelling/healing...but I'd get a 2nd opinion...
Please don't cry over peeing all over yourself. Our bodies are wonderful, but birth is a very hard effort--and all of our systems get involved...your body is a wonderful machine and it can heal and be well again! The one thing I would remind you is go and get some probiotics--acidolpholus, plain yogart, etc. The antiboitics can really make a bad situation worse with a yeast infection (either vaginal or thrush if you are breastfeeding!)

Mama--remember this--in all things like this that are SO DIFFICULT, we learn. We learn and we empower ourselves--and we can in turn become a teacher for others. I had a BAD time after my dd's birth and nursing was a BITCH! BUT, because of my experience, I know I have made a difference in many people's lives with my convictions with breastfeeding and birth. YOU can also be convicted and help others!!! But for now, rest, heal, and relax.

Your body made a miracle...then you worked your hardest (even against some tough obsticles--the medical community!!) to get this baby out...and in the end you produced a healthy and happy baby. Your body DID NOT fail--your attendants might have failed you though--and that is why I think you need a 2nd opinion!

I'm thinking of you and sending you healing vibes!

[cynde]

good thoughts for you

My thought is that alot may have failed you but you were and ARE strong , brave and the mother of a wonderful child. If you feel that it would help: pursue the legal issue but don't feel guilty if you also decide to move forward and focus on your rehabilatation and family.
I think that we all have ideal birth plans and that is wonderful. We all may now think in retrospect of things that could have been done. But you did your best and a birth plan should be the ideal not a way to beat ourselves up if something unplanned happens.
Please, I hope you let go of any shame , guilt or depression you are directing towards yourself.

[Pynki]

WAIT!

You're leaking urine out of your vagine like you got a fistula? Because if so that is COMPLETELY doctor error. You weren't birthing alone, and your providers SHOULD have caught that!

[vloky]

yes, I'm leaking out of my vagina the e.r. doctor called it a fistula but my urologist said it's not a fistula it's the beginnings of one a pathway or something..: One of my 2 ob/gyns who were at my c-section said during the c-section he noticed blood in my bladder and took a look at my bladder and didn't note any tears or rips and figured it was bleeding from the catheter... Bah. I just want to get this fixed asap. If it's not fixed before my medicaid runs out ill have to move home to minnesota so I can get state insurance and get it fixed.. *frustrated*

[Pynki]

You cold probably sue the doctors. Especially if it's noted in your chart. They saw a problem and didn't follow up on it, and the hospital's abysmal care exacerbated it whether it was pre-exisitng (Which I doubt because you would have noticed it!) or not.