does anybody have some patience to lend me?

[Finch]

I just got back from an out of town trip that was supposed to be about me resting and recharging, but neither of those things happened. I didn't rest and I actually got what was probably mild food poisoning one day. Anyway, I'm back now and I have ZERO patience with ds today. None. Nada. Zip. Zilch. :

I just want to be left alone for a week or two or something, and he is all over me, of course. He misses his mama.

I just feel so irritable and on edge. I hate it.

[corhorvath]

Sorry to hear you didn't get the rest and relaxation you needed. That sounds pretty disappointing.

For me, when I need a break and my girls need me and won't let me have a break (I know, like they can give me a break...) -- I just give in to their needs.

It seems like it's easier to give in and make them happy then battle my wants for rest. Then when they nap, I feel good that I met their needs and don't have any momma guilt which lets me be kinder to myself and allow an hour of scrapbooking or whatever else I want to do--maybe even just sit and read or watch tv.

[Finch]

I just feel like a dried up shell. Ds didn't sleep well with me out of town, and hence is crabby like me from the effects of cumulative sleep deprivation. Plus the whole being autistic and having changed his routine is making him wonky. He was throwing food and utensils at feeding therapy this morning, then he screamed his guts out when I was TRYING to go on a tour of a special needs preschool we are desperate to get him into. So I had to reschedule the tour.

I'm just tired. I'm exhausted. I rocked him for 1.5 hours last night to get him to sleep, which hasn't happened in a long time, so my "tolerance" for it was much lower. He's clingy and tantruming and stimming and all that and it's all because I went out of town to try to rest which never happened. So now we're both screwed.

[HollyBearsMom]

No advice just thought you might need a hug.


I will admit that when I am at my wits end I break the cardinal rule and put on a movie for my son and we curl up on the couch, snuggled under blankets. I can usually sip a cup of tea and read while he watches. Since we watch so little TV he just totally zones and it can be a great "escape". This can be hard to do because I have to just let go of the fact their is laundry to be done, dishes in the sink etc. But once I can do that just hanging on the couch for a few hours can re-charge me.

[Finch]

I'm already being a sucky mom by letting him watch Little Einsteins while I veg at the computer. :

Sigh. I just...ugh....I feel like my body has been dipped in concrete or something.

[newmommy]

Originally Posted by Finch

I'm already being a sucky mom by letting him watch Little Einsteins while I veg at the computer. :

You are NOT being a sucky mom. You are doing what you need to do to recharge. I will be the first to admit that when *I* need to get myself together, I absolutely let DS zone out on TV.

It's about survival. No shame in that.

[goddessgold1]

Must be something in the air, this is how I have felt all day today.: