Best of both worlds (pg v. not pg)

[Galatea]

We are trying not to get pg, using charting. Every month I get sort of happy at the prospect of maybe messing up and being pg, and I enjoy thinking, "Does this spotting/this high temp mean I am pg?" Then I get happy when I get AF b/c I am not pg! Am I crazy? Do I want a baby or not? Sometimes I think I enjoy the anticipation of being pg but don't actually want another baby to raise (for now).

[wendyland]

Sometimes I wonder if I like the anticipation more. I love both my girls, but it's also so hard especially the first couple years. I thought I was done after having two, but I remarried this summer and I want one with my husband. Part of me doesn't want to have any more because it's so nice having the kids stay with their dad for half the week. I feel like my body craves it. I wonder if I'd still crave it after one more.

[mommyofshmoo]

Ah, imaginary babies don't keep you up at night.

I go through stuff like this all the time. Right now I'm not ready to be pg again, but I think I will be in 6 months.

Funny- my first child was "accidental" and with child #2 we sort of tried and I had a miscarriage, then didn't get pg. So I decided I wasn't ready to get pg again and PRESTO! I was pregnant. I don't know if I'm capable of getting pregnant on purpose.

I think my brain messes with my hormones when I consciously try. It's almost like trying to give myself an injection, pregnancy and childbirth (and sleep deprivation) are so unpleasant I can't consciously inflict them on myself.

(Not on topic exactly, but similar)

[momz3]

LOL I know the feeling. We are ttc #4 so every month I get a negative on a hpt, dh and I think "Well, we get to go on a vacation for our anniversary!" Or how I get to try to lose a few more pounds before pregnancy...or how I can enjoy the holiday cooking without feeling sick to my stomach and bitchy. But then...every month I'm going through opks just to get pg lol.