Wow, Happy Happy Birthday Elwynn!!! A big 4 year old boy!
Jaz, I wish I could have given you my Dodge Ram Van instead of giving it to my stupid sister. She is such a loser... But she is pregnant and I figured if she got evicted from yet another apartment complex at least she'd have somewhere to live, YK? In a van down by the river!
I have been in pain. The hole in my wisdom tooth has gotten down to the nerve, so I have to brush it madly whenever food gets in it and take Tylenol, and it hurts very badly. Plus I prefer to sleep on my back and since I've had to sleep on my sides all night long my back is really REALLY killing me. It feels like I have a charlie horse under my right scapula all day long and everything I do is painful. So, yeah, I have been a crab lately and trying to remain positive because I have 13 more days till my appointment to get this damn tooth yanked out. But man oh man, it freakin HURTS!!!
So, what should I do about Julianna? Her shyness has turned into downright rudeness. She refuses to talk to people, even those she knows. She looks down at the ground and ignores people, or she grunts like an animal and covers her face with her hand. At first I thought it was the whole 'bio family confusion' thing, and because she was afraid of her Grandma (she still won't even talk to her after 8 months of visits). Last night we went to the children's hospital because a local photographer had offered to give all the trach'ed pediatric patients free Christmas photos. She was *completely* fine until we got into the room to sit down for our photos and all of a sudden she started sobbing for seemingly no reason. The photographer's assistants were trying to baby her (IMO), and actually asked me if she could open her present!!! I was like- oh yeah, please reward her bad behavior.
The way I saw it Julianna was getting attention from the assistants so she was milking it and continuing her little fit for more attention. I asked her what was wrong and she just stared at me and kept crying, wouldn't give me a reason. I took her outside and sat her on a bench and tried to calm her down. I explained that we were taking a new picture to hang above the fireplace and everyone wanted to see how big she has gotten and how pretty she looked in her nice dress. I was patient (IMO) and just tried to be nice and calm her down- instead of ringing her little neck like I wanted to. I mean, come on, I had the photographer in there, donating his time during the holidays to take our pictures for free, all the assistants waiting, Zachary sitting in there waiting for us to take the picture, Crystal in her wheelchair waiting for us, and DH waiting while holding Kaylee, who started crying when I left because she's a mama's girl. I was so mad at Julianna because there was absolutely NO reason for her to act out like that, other than the fact that she thought the assistants enjoyed goo-gooing and ga-gaing over her, and babying her.
: She kept covering her face and frowning for all the pictures, but I didn't care- I just told her that she would have to explain to everyone why she looked so unhappy in our family picture when we hang it on the wall. Then, after the whole ordeal, they handed out little Christmas gifts for all the kids, and Julianna wouldn't say thank you when she opened hers. (Yes, I think it is important to be appreciative when someone takes the time to give you a free gift- I know some of you don't agree with me, like it's "forcing" them to say thank you.) Then when it was time to leave she started sobbing again that she didn't want to leave!!! UGH! I was so frustrated! One of the ladies even asked me how long she had lived with us, as if to say that her behavioral problems had stemmed from being a 'poor little foster child with no one to love her' or something. I said "We've had her since she was four days old" and I was thinking "so I guess her attitude is my fault."
: I know I am more edgy now that I am pregnant, but I have 3 other kids who all act appropriately in public- they say thank you when people pay them a compliment, say hello when someone says hello, look people in the eye, etc. So why does Julianna insist on being the one who acts like a child raised by wolves? I am so tired of having people look at me like "Teach your kid some manners, lady!!!" because I AGREE with them- she shouldn't be so damn rude all the time! So, when do you accept the shyness as shyness and when do you draw the line at rudeness??? Or do you? I personally don't think she has any "right" to be rude to people just because she is confused about her visits with her Grandma. Do you think these issues stem from the bio family confusion and the jealousy of the new baby sister? And how do I get down to the bottom of it so she stops being such a brat? (Sorry, but she is
) Am I being a bitch? She is also having some other issues- like not listening, directly disobeying, lying, hiding things, etc., which are started to piss me off. She seems to be getting out of control, and I don't want her to go too far because I don't think I can handle the aftermath, YK? And really I am tired of feeling judged by people because my kid is so fricking rude and disrepectful. (Zachary is not like this.) So, any advice? Thanks for letting me vent, ladies...
DH s taking J and Z to the lake to run some old gas out of the boat (too cold for me, thank you!), so Crystal and I are going to wrap some presents while Kaylee naps. Have a good day, Mamas.