I thought I kind of wanted a surprise baby until recently I took a pregnancy test and read it wrong

: and *thought* it was a positive. I nearly had a heart attack as I already had really crazy day with my 2 very young children

: At that moment the reality of having a third baby right now smacked me upside the head. I've had one surprise pregnancy in my life (my daughter) and the absolutely-freaking-out that happened makes me not want to relive that part of the experience. I suppose I felt that panic when I found out I was having my second baby too (planned and very much anticipated).
We don't use any birth control now, but I haven't had AF yet so who knows what will happen. At this point we are just taking it all as it comes along. I'd be okay with it taking longer than it did after my first baby (14 months pp), and I *think* I would be okay with it even if it happened now (depends on the day

).
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