until a woman who is like my second mother won't be able to be at my birth if I don't magically go into labor and give birth before very early tomorrow morning... 
: She was there when I was born, and for my sister and brothers' births also, and for a few reasons (mostly having to do with dh) she wasn't at my dd's birth and I really wanted her to be here for this birth! She has been so wonderful and supportive and is bringing us food tonight before her trip tomorrow, and organized more than two weeks of people bringing us meals after the baby is born, and has spent a lot of time with dd... it is so hard to let go and be ok with the fact that she won't be able to be there! And I know she is sad about it too... I gave her a gift and a card expressing how greatful we are for all the support she has given us, and I wanted to cry when she left... 
I really am trying to remind myself (hourly, it seems) that I have no control, and that the baby will come when it is ready, and that everything will go as it should.... but this is especially hard. Thanks mamas, for listening....
: She was there when I was born, and for my sister and brothers' births also, and for a few reasons (mostly having to do with dh) she wasn't at my dd's birth and I really wanted her to be here for this birth! She has been so wonderful and supportive and is bringing us food tonight before her trip tomorrow, and organized more than two weeks of people bringing us meals after the baby is born, and has spent a lot of time with dd... it is so hard to let go and be ok with the fact that she won't be able to be there! And I know she is sad about it too... I gave her a gift and a card expressing how greatful we are for all the support she has given us, and I wanted to cry when she left... I really am trying to remind myself (hourly, it seems) that I have no control, and that the baby will come when it is ready, and that everything will go as it should.... but this is especially hard. Thanks mamas, for listening....
