Oh ladies, I feel like I never start a thread unless there's something going wrong in my life. And here I am to do the same thing again.
I am having a really hard time right now ... emotionally, physically, mentally, etc. I am so scared for the transition I'm about to make into motherhood. Honestly, I just keep on thinking about how hard it's going to be to retain any part of my individuality, to not find myself only identifying myself as a mother. Somewhere deep inside I know that this won't actually end up being a problem, I know that I'll make sure I am still myself while becoming a mom. I know I can do this. But it doesn't mean that it's not weighing pretty heavily on me right now.
And I'm just so ready for this pregnancy to be over. Everything hurts and it's making me miserable. And, as shallow as it sounds, I hate how I look. I love seeing other pregnant women ... I think they're beautiful and amazing and until I became pregnant myself I always envied them their gorgeous earth mother shape. But now here I am and, though I know I should be proud of my changing body, I am just horrified by how I look. I spent a lot of time in the last couple years losing a lot of weight that is now all back on. And I know I'll lose a lot of it as soon as the baby appears, but it's hard when almost all of my weight gain is in my face and I find myself looking at it all the time.
I don't know, I'm sure I'd feel better if I could bring myself to get off the couch and do something other than eat, but everything hurts so much!
Ok, I feel better. I think I just needed to vent to people who have the chance of understanding. My DH just keeps on telling me I'm crazy or how gorgeous I look or jokingly calling me fatty ... none of which help. And I'm pretty much stuck in pregnancy land alone, except for you guys. Yet another situation where I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to have you all.
Much love.
--Margaret
I am having a really hard time right now ... emotionally, physically, mentally, etc. I am so scared for the transition I'm about to make into motherhood. Honestly, I just keep on thinking about how hard it's going to be to retain any part of my individuality, to not find myself only identifying myself as a mother. Somewhere deep inside I know that this won't actually end up being a problem, I know that I'll make sure I am still myself while becoming a mom. I know I can do this. But it doesn't mean that it's not weighing pretty heavily on me right now.
And I'm just so ready for this pregnancy to be over. Everything hurts and it's making me miserable. And, as shallow as it sounds, I hate how I look. I love seeing other pregnant women ... I think they're beautiful and amazing and until I became pregnant myself I always envied them their gorgeous earth mother shape. But now here I am and, though I know I should be proud of my changing body, I am just horrified by how I look. I spent a lot of time in the last couple years losing a lot of weight that is now all back on. And I know I'll lose a lot of it as soon as the baby appears, but it's hard when almost all of my weight gain is in my face and I find myself looking at it all the time.
I don't know, I'm sure I'd feel better if I could bring myself to get off the couch and do something other than eat, but everything hurts so much!
Ok, I feel better. I think I just needed to vent to people who have the chance of understanding. My DH just keeps on telling me I'm crazy or how gorgeous I look or jokingly calling me fatty ... none of which help. And I'm pretty much stuck in pregnancy land alone, except for you guys. Yet another situation where I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to have you all.
Much love.
--Margaret
Bottom line, having her changed my perception on LIFE ...and I'm sure it will change for you too. These changes in you are GOOD things...let yourself morph into mom! 
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