I have a big problem. My dad was incredibly verbally and emotionally abusive to me. All I remember about my childhood is being yelled at, sworn at, etc. I have a beautiful two year old boy who is a real handful. Over the past few months since my ddaughter was born he has been incredibly hard to handle. I am finding myself filled with such a rage towards him, I want to yell at him, curse him, hit him. I don't know why I feel these things because in my head I know that and believe these things are wrong. But I find myself doing them anyways. I have yelled at him and even hit him a few times. One time last week he kicked me in the face while I was changing him and I popped him one on his bare thigh. How horrible am I? I just don't know what to do with such a wild kid. He doesn't listen to a word I say, he laughs in my face if I try and discipline him gently. I'm afraid I am raising a brat and most of all I am afraid I am going to start abusing my child. Please help!
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4/25/03 at 8:54am