I am trying hard to stay focused.. it seems so close now yet so far away
With my first birth (and first c/s) I never dreamed about the birth before hand. With my second (failed vbac) I had a vivid dream about 1/2 way into my pregnancy... shortly before we found we were having a girl. I dreamt I was at the birth center and had a lovely labor and then my baby, a little girl with a head full of dark hair, was handed to me. I never saw the birth in my dream.. she was just handed to me. I remember feeling both happy and sad in my dream.... and after laboring beautifully at home, pushing in every manner possible for 4 hours.. she was delivered by c/s.. having been completely impacted in my pelvis from her attempt to come out forehead first. She had a head full of dark hair...
This pregnancy.. shortly before DH and I decided on a homebirth, I had another birth dream.. that I had this baby at home.. a beautiful labor and pushing stage and he arrived (in my shorts no less) with the help of a midwife. I saw the whole birth in my dream...It was beautiful and I woke so filled with peace..
I am holding onto that image every day.. and envisioning it.. I do hope that it will be what happens..