My baby is a week old now, I think I am ready to talk about what happened.
I began having uncomfortable contractions about 10 days before he was born. Enough to make me breathe and pay attention, but not stong enough to make me stop whatever I was doing. During this same week my brother told my sil he wants a divorce. They have a 2 mo old. A few days after that I found out he has had a GF the whole time she was pregnant. My mood was not very good. I cried at my last OB appt that I just couldn't be pregnant anymore. She knew of my plan for a natural childbirth and told me that if my contractions got regular, even if they weren't stong enough, and I really couldn't take it, that she would break my water instead of ordering pit, the "normal" prcedure.
I began to rationalize that my water was going to brake eventually anyway so it was still part of my natural birth. Early on Tuesday morning I went in and at 10:30 they ruptured my membranes. In about two hours the contractions were QUITE painful. I was really proud of how well I was handling them. My kids came with my mom to visit at around 2:15 and then things changed. I felt like I must be in transition, cxs were every 2 min, lasting a min and I vomited a couple times. So I had the nurse check my dilation. 4. ok. I wasn't happy but still, I knew things were happening. Then the nurse said she felt a hand on top of his head. I am not suprised, I told my husband several times that I thought he had a hand up there. She has my ob come in and check. sure enough. She is confident he can come out that way, may mean some extra stitches though. no big deal. Alone again at 2:30, mh DH and I try a sitting position for this next contraction.
Baby's heartrate drops to around 70. I am in EXTREME pain as I get onto my left side. FH tinks the monitor moved and is getting my HR instead of babies.
I know he is wrong.
HR doesn't come up so I page nurse. She comes in and says we will stimulate his scalp, it will come back up, all kinds of encouraging things.
I know she is wrong.
I tell her I need c/s. Now. No time for epi.
By this time there are lots of people in the room. I look at my doc, and say "it's ok just get him out"
I tell the anesthesiologist that I get very sick from general and he is trying to tell me I will have plenty of time for epi.
Why isn't anyone listening to me??????
Finally my ob says "forget it we have to go now"
because even with the internal monitor, there are no detectable fetal heart tones.
I remember telling my husband that I was not scared, that I was ok so he needs to be ok too.
I was still having cxs as they insert the cath, scrub my belly and do my IV.
They delivered him at 2:49. Just in time I guess because I was told his cord blood ph was 7.06. Apparantly anything below 7.6 is cause for concern and below 7.0 basically means brain damage or death. My ob says that the only thing she can figure happened was that he pulled his hand back in and pinched off the cord. Normally a cord can handle that kind of thing but this one was very narrow and had not very much wharton's jelly.
His apgars were 8 and 9. He is perfect.
I know my c/s was truly an emergency and saved his life.
I feel like I lost my last chance for natural childbirth. If I wasn't such a wimp, and asked for the rupture, maybe things would have been different. I don't know if I am ready to mourn for that loss because I feel so lucky to have my boy.
I don't believe energency c/s really are emergencies most of the time, so maybe this is Karma.
I just needed a place to vent where people would understand. Most of my family is just relieved.
Thanks for listening ladies.
I began having uncomfortable contractions about 10 days before he was born. Enough to make me breathe and pay attention, but not stong enough to make me stop whatever I was doing. During this same week my brother told my sil he wants a divorce. They have a 2 mo old. A few days after that I found out he has had a GF the whole time she was pregnant. My mood was not very good. I cried at my last OB appt that I just couldn't be pregnant anymore. She knew of my plan for a natural childbirth and told me that if my contractions got regular, even if they weren't stong enough, and I really couldn't take it, that she would break my water instead of ordering pit, the "normal" prcedure.
I began to rationalize that my water was going to brake eventually anyway so it was still part of my natural birth. Early on Tuesday morning I went in and at 10:30 they ruptured my membranes. In about two hours the contractions were QUITE painful. I was really proud of how well I was handling them. My kids came with my mom to visit at around 2:15 and then things changed. I felt like I must be in transition, cxs were every 2 min, lasting a min and I vomited a couple times. So I had the nurse check my dilation. 4. ok. I wasn't happy but still, I knew things were happening. Then the nurse said she felt a hand on top of his head. I am not suprised, I told my husband several times that I thought he had a hand up there. She has my ob come in and check. sure enough. She is confident he can come out that way, may mean some extra stitches though. no big deal. Alone again at 2:30, mh DH and I try a sitting position for this next contraction.
Baby's heartrate drops to around 70. I am in EXTREME pain as I get onto my left side. FH tinks the monitor moved and is getting my HR instead of babies.
I know he is wrong.
HR doesn't come up so I page nurse. She comes in and says we will stimulate his scalp, it will come back up, all kinds of encouraging things.
I know she is wrong.
I tell her I need c/s. Now. No time for epi.
By this time there are lots of people in the room. I look at my doc, and say "it's ok just get him out"
I tell the anesthesiologist that I get very sick from general and he is trying to tell me I will have plenty of time for epi.
Why isn't anyone listening to me??????
Finally my ob says "forget it we have to go now"
because even with the internal monitor, there are no detectable fetal heart tones.
I remember telling my husband that I was not scared, that I was ok so he needs to be ok too.
I was still having cxs as they insert the cath, scrub my belly and do my IV.
They delivered him at 2:49. Just in time I guess because I was told his cord blood ph was 7.06. Apparantly anything below 7.6 is cause for concern and below 7.0 basically means brain damage or death. My ob says that the only thing she can figure happened was that he pulled his hand back in and pinched off the cord. Normally a cord can handle that kind of thing but this one was very narrow and had not very much wharton's jelly.
His apgars were 8 and 9. He is perfect.
I know my c/s was truly an emergency and saved his life.
I feel like I lost my last chance for natural childbirth. If I wasn't such a wimp, and asked for the rupture, maybe things would have been different. I don't know if I am ready to mourn for that loss because I feel so lucky to have my boy.
I don't believe energency c/s really are emergencies most of the time, so maybe this is Karma.
I just needed a place to vent where people would understand. Most of my family is just relieved.
Thanks for listening ladies.
