Hospital birth was out of the question. I was made to sit in the waiting room for 2 hours in labor, go down a flight of stairs, & have my IV installed by a woman who had never done it before (I didn't want one anyway) I was given an epidural and Nubain, given pitocin and an amniotomy, yelled at and insulted by the nurses & doctor who urged me to disregard my instincts and obey them, and had to deliver my baby into the hands of a doctor who looked as if he were daydreaming about golf--completely uninvolved, no joy or excitement on his face whatsoever. My husband was merely a bystander. My child was taken away, scrubbed, and had God knows what else done to him before given to me. I was read several pamplets on how to be a mother, when really I just wanted to hold my son and go to sleep. I was made to sit in the transition room for 3 hours with bright lighting, having my blood pressure taken every 15 minutes. There was constant pestering the entire 2 days we were there, and my son was periodically removed from the room for whatever reason or not. They rarely explained things to me, and definitely not the opposition to any procedures. I was just a pawn, and my husband an onlooker.
I knew I wanted a homebirth, but it'd be a hassel to get our insurance to cover one or pay for one ourselves. I began looking into UC and realized it was for me, not because of the payment reasons but because of the fact that I want supreme control over my birth. Midwives are wonderful, but sometimes do intervene without necessity and/or control the flow of the birth. Even ones who seem very hands-off may not be exactly what you want when you are birthing. I would much rather my husband act as my midwife, trust my own instincts, and rely on our skills and intuition. In short, I think we should do this ourselves, alone; we started it that way, and that is how we should finish it. I don't want anyone telling me what to do or how to do it, examining me, refusing things for fear of being sued, etc. I can do this myself, and I think it will give me an amazing sense of confidence, put me in touch with myself and with nature, and be a wake-up call for the entire family. I don't feel safe in a hospital or with a midwife, for fear of intervention or just simple discomfort being caused. It feels wrong to me as well to have a stranger there. It should be a private experience for my family.
I have a ton of reasons, but the big one is just that it feels right to me. I am not pregnant yet but...that is what I am planning!