hey mamas,,,i'm sitting here trying
to catch up on posts unfortunetely my brain is unable to co operate at the moment, although, I am able to write about myself no problem
oh and btw,,,the saturn return thing makes sense,,,some big change definitely seems to be happening. I'm happy to be able to be coming back here in a much better place, both with myself and my sweetie and actually dd too (yay!) we had a few days apart and I was worried because it felt weak between us and that scared me,,,I let it go and trusted but still it hurt because I realize that after we met and he left I felt that this was going to be a very long term thing and then the reality of being together and no longer the distance/dreamy relationship was a shock so with a lot of help from you mamas I've been able to work thru some craziness and gain perspective. The post MsChatsAlot wrote regarding the risk in relationship really stuck with me for a few days and I knew the truth in it,,,I've learned so much truth lately,,,truths that I feel like I maybe should have learned by now but havent,,,I'm doing a lot of that lately,,its funny sometimes how dp comments on the way I do certain things and shows me simple totally logical ways to do it easier/better but I just never realized,,,life is getting easier in some ways the more I learn to stop making it so hard.
We had our second night all to ourselves yesterday and it was magical,,,I'm feeling thankful and peaceful with the fact that what I thought we had we do definitely have and it grew stronger with the experience we had together. So feeling good at where we are at.