Keep them foibles under wraps darling! Only share with the best of 'em, that's my NEW mantra!
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12/7/06 at 3:50am
stirringleaf, I just think you are too insecure, no offense. Maybe it was the wine posting , but saying things like what you said at the end of your last post makes no sense. I doubt he was being condescending. Otherwise, his gf would have said, "He thinks you're attracted to him." not "He thinks there's an attraction btn. you." There's a huuuuuuge difference in those 2 statements.
I think you're really needy right now. Hence your desire to tell the woman friend that she's more important to you than some man. Why would you feel that way about someone you think is making fun of you (in some way) with her bf? I just think you need someone, right now. That is COMPLETELY NORMAL! We all need others.
I think you need to stop drinking, tho. Ppl were flirting with you! If you weren't so self-conscious, I think last night could have gone much better for you. Lay off the drinking. And, start telling yourself positive things about you. Because YOU ARE GREAT. There is nothing wrong with you that's too much for others to see past in order to be your friend or whatever. But, YOU have to believe that in order for it to matter.
Just remember that you have to be your own best friend. You have to be your own lover. You have to be your own mentor and confidante. If you can be those things to yourself, you will find others who can be a positive force in your life and you will feel welcome to invite them in.
There's nothing wrong with you. This is part of the Process. Just stop drinking and start with some positive self-talk.
|i felt like people wanted peices of me, but didnt care to actually know me. i wish i were more open and sexually free,because i could have gone home with a couple different people, i really had my choice! that was so weird. but i really am not like that. i wish i were, that might be fun if i could not turn to stone anytime someone actually tried to touch me.|
Yay! I am very very excited. I have been working tons lately...This is day 10 of 14 straight trying to pay the bills. I had a super bad night with ex (I don't even want to post about it). So I was telling my bf on the phone how crappy I felt and he said I could have one of my xmas presents early. So Thursday I am going to the salon and getting my hair cut (first time in 7 months) and a full head of Foils!!!!! I have never had my hair dyed at a salon before. I am so stoked.
He is soooo sweet. I am so in