I've been reading along but I feel like I haven't *been*here in a long time. We've been having a pleasantly uneventful week since xmas. I'm sorry to see how many of you have been having stressful times with family. After I left my dad's we wrote a few emails back and forth about how it was a bummer that I'd been stressed out by his step family and how it would be nice if we could actually be purely joyful just to be in each other's presence but that life just doesn't seem to be that way for real. But it was good to have the chance to do a post mortem on the visit and see that we both felt the same way.
Dr.Jen - I cannot believe your mom! I try to imagine what I would have thought if my Grandma tried to manhandle me at 11 years old and it is too bizarre, what was she thinking?
So what are you all doing tonight? I feel like after all the anticipation I've had building up to tonight I should be doing something exciting, glamorous, meaningful etc but really I think I'm going to go to bed early and catch up on sleep (last night I thought I was just beginning to get either a bad flu or food poisoning, I had the chills, the runs, waves of nausea. But somehow it petered out and I feel okay today
Thank you arsenicum 6c!). There is a party we're invited to and it seems like everyone else in town is dressing up and going out so it's hard to feel okay about having no plans and just being normal.
Well, I just found dh in bed. He says that he's feeling the early flu-type symptoms so maybe I should just focus on hoping that we can all dodge the bullet!
So, this is more non-RR stuff but I'm curious if y'all would think it sounds crazy. I am thinking about going on a 9 day pilgrimage to some shrine in the next state at the end of January. It's not so much that I'm devoted to the particular vision of the virgin that we're supposed to see there but timing is such that it would be the 9 days leading up to the first anniversary of Wendy's death. It just seems like maybe it would be sort of nice solemn way to mark the days with plenty of time for reflection. It's sort of vision-quest-with-a-crowd. There is an article about it here
just scroll halfway down the page. I feel like it wold be somehow appropriate and almost especially so since dh would have to take dd with him up to the States. I think 9 days away from dd would be hard but I kind of feel life this would help me remember who I am outside the context of my family.
So, anyway, I welcome your thoughts and I'm curious about your doings for tonight. Sorry about the flagrant lack of personals!
:Happy New Year!!!