Soooooo, guess who's not going to Pittsburgh? Us.
We had planned on leaving around DS's bedtime and her early-evening nap time, so that they would both just lsepe in the car the whole trip (about 6-1/2 hours). Welllllll, DD SCREAMED in the car. I mean, screamed. It was the worst 45 minutes of my life thus far. She's never been THIS upset in the car. She was fine as we got onto the highway, got off a couple minutes later to grab some Wendy's for me and DH,

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andthen got back on. About a minute later she started crying...about 2 minutes later we stopped at a rest stop because I thought she might have pooped, it kind of sounded like her "hey, I'm sittign in poop over here!" cry...but no poop. So, I nursed her, she was calm and smiley, and I put her back in her seat. 2 minutes on the highway and she's crying again....I had a flashlight so I thought maybe she was scared of the dark...that calmed her down for about 2 minutes, and she started SCREAMING this time. And I mean that high-pitched, 'mommy where are you' type of scream. So, DH turned around at the next exit, then we had a 25-minute drive home, with her screaming the whole way...that gasping, choking scream. It's burned into my memory. How the

can people make their babies cry it out on purpose?

: I practically vaulted over the top of the car once we were in the driveway, to get her into my arms....took her about 20 minutes to calm down, and then she slept fine the rest of the night cuddled right next to me. Woke at 5am, changed her diaper and she smiled and cooed at me, nursed and is back asleep now.
I'm bummed about not seeing my family (good news is my aunt's prognosis right now is OK, so hopefully we've got some time to get them together), but Oh.My.God. How horrible.
Beyond that, I was about ready to strangle my DH. He seems to think that I'm completely irrational when it comes to my parents. His family is NOT really close. My family is...so sometimes I do things that to him seem "inconvenient" to see them....it's always been a point of contention in our marriage. So last night, when he said he was pulling off and turning around, I said, "Good, let's get her home as fast as we can"....I seriously felt like I was going to vomit with how upset she was...a couple minutes later I reached over to hold his arm, and he mumbled something about "priorities"...and I said, "Don't even go there - how was I supposed to know she'd do this? I don't want this any more than you do, we just need to get her home." So...about 5 min later, it looked like she was going to scream herself to sleep (:Puke) and I said "oh man, it looks like she's goign to fall asleep.". He had the nerve to say, "well, I'm not turning around". O.M.G.

you. What kind of a monster does he think I am? I couldn't even look at thim. I said, "how DARE you", and he started to say something, and I said, "Don't talk." I couldn't even look at him the rest of the trip or night...and I think he knew he crossed a line. First time I've ever gone to bed mad at him. Guess who's having a discussion today?

: Yeah - I'm gonna have my baby scream herself to sleep, wake up in the car and scream some more until she falls asleep again, and then wake up screaming again, for the next 6-1/2 hours. Yeah. OK. He can't seem to grasp the concept that I can be
disappointed about not seeing my family, but also NOT ACTUALLY GO. Good God. Or maybe because I called my mom from the car to let her know we weren't coming and I apologized and said I wished we could see them, maybe he took that as me being "resentful" of DD? Who knows, but I REALLY have to talk to him - that was just ridiculous.
Ahhhh, I feel much better now typing it out. DD is happy again thank GOD, and I'll iron this out with DH later today.
Seriously. How do people do CIO? I wanted to rip my skin off

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