So I do have Strep. Doc put my on amoxicillin for 10 days. I will be eating lots of yogurt and taking my probiotics to keep the good bacteria in me.
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12/11/06 at 6:34pm
GRAAAAAGGGGG! IS CONCEPTION REALLY POSSIBLE? I mean maybe it does actually come from a stork?
I apologize in advance for the gloominess of this post. I am an optimistic realist, and I am grateful for everything~good and bad b/c I think that's what makes up this experience of life. I am happy with turning things over to a higher power, and using my brains to do what I can do on this journey.
I just can't take TTC anymore. I have never felt so horrible in my life. I can't see solutions b/c I am so caught up in disappointment and fear and grief. I feel like such an idiot everytime I hold on to hope as the cramps come and temps drop. I am becoming an angry person. I am mad, so f&^%$ing mad at nothing. I just hurt in places I didn't know I could hurt. I can't imagine being a mom with these feelings. And then I think maybe that's why, why every month this happens. I went to a 1 year old bday party yesterday. And the sweetie just toddled over to her mommy who was sitting on the floor and hugged her back with all her will. And it was so beautiful. And I cry now b/c my husband may never know how that feels and all he can do is watch it happen to other people.
And I know that I'll get a grip, as I almost have now that I've snotted all over the keyboard. I really need a rollercoaster icon....
s and to all, thanks for listening