Originally Posted by rmzbm
Your posts make me really sad. For you as well as your DD. I wish so much that you could find some joy in cosleeping. Really, truely. It is such an amazing thing, I just wish, from the bottom of my heart, that everyone took as much pleasure from it as I do.
I agree. Co-sleeping has NEVER been easy for me. I am a DEEP sleeper. I'm talking 12-14 hours straight, don't remember my head hitting the pillow, don't wake me up before noon, kind of sleeper. Plus, I have fibromyalgia and other chronic pain issues. I have a bulging disk in my back, and with my thoracic outlet syndrome my arms go numb, COLD NUMB, when I sleep on my side.. yet I do it anyway.
I also understand the "quality over quantity" argument about sleeping, but I've learned to adjust. I honestly cannot fathom how anyone can get up and walk the halls, sit in a rocking chair, bounce, or otherwise be "awake" in the middle of the night. I just can't. I may nurse her back to sleep 7 times a night, but this, to me, is WAY more preferable then getting up and sitting in a rocking chair! I guess I am lazy!
There was a period of about a month (maybe more?) when DD slept better in her own room, so I let her. I have two monitors and was very responsive to her needs. It was a total PIA! I hated it. We've now had the crib side carred with the drop rail off and things are SO much easier.
I know you will have a gazillion reasons not to agree with what I'm about to say, but instead of complaining about co-sleeping and harping about how you need "good" sleep, why don't you give letting her sleep in bed, at the boob, all night long, an honest effort?
You don't need a bunch of expensive pillows, even rolled towels in the right place can help. I find for me my upper back, my lower back, and between the knees needs some sort of support. Give yourself, and your daughter, time to adjust to it. You may find it ends up being easier then you think.