Hello,
I haven't posted much but I've been with this forum since early on. You all have been such a great source of information and support!
Anyway, this is my first pregnancy and we planned to birth at home. Over the last few weeks my BP went up and although the bloodwork and urine tests came back negative for pre-e, my midwife's consulting OB requested a U/S to check the placenta and fluid--to rule out PIH and clear me for homebirth. So yesterday (which was my EDD) we go in and the baby (who has been head down & on the left for most of the preg) decided to turn breech at the last minute!
Because my fluid measured low (U/S tech had a hard time finidng a pocket to measure) they do not want to do an external version and I am going in for a section this morning.
Right now I am still in shock and I am hanging on to just being numb so I don't panic. I can't say I had no fears about natural labor but (with thanks to MDC and all the great books out there) I felt confident in the process. But I am scared about the epidural and the section! Plus, of course it is a let down--I saw a chiro throughout the pregnancy and followed spinning babies tips to try to prevent this! (She would have done webster last night if I had called, but I just didn't see the point when they scheduled the surgery already.) If I felt any fight in me I could try to find a lay midwife willing to do frank breech delivery or protest and wait to see if I can get him to turn, but the motivation is not there. Plus I LOVE my MW! I am in a go-with-the-flow state of being and not devistated--drawing upon my spiritual resources. Maybe there is a karmic lesson here--buddhists believe dissapointiment is an excellent learning tool--at least by looking at this experience in that way I can try to get something positive out of it. In addition to my baby--which I can hardly believe I will be seeing in a few hours! Hopefully the love I will feel for him will wash away my mixed feelings about the way he will come into the world!
One ironic note--one nurse who will attend today (she did the NST I had last night) had two home births with my MW and the wife of the OB who is doing the section also had a HB with her!
Thanks for listening--will update when I get home!
Kristin
I haven't posted much but I've been with this forum since early on. You all have been such a great source of information and support!
Anyway, this is my first pregnancy and we planned to birth at home. Over the last few weeks my BP went up and although the bloodwork and urine tests came back negative for pre-e, my midwife's consulting OB requested a U/S to check the placenta and fluid--to rule out PIH and clear me for homebirth. So yesterday (which was my EDD) we go in and the baby (who has been head down & on the left for most of the preg) decided to turn breech at the last minute!
Because my fluid measured low (U/S tech had a hard time finidng a pocket to measure) they do not want to do an external version and I am going in for a section this morning.Right now I am still in shock and I am hanging on to just being numb so I don't panic. I can't say I had no fears about natural labor but (with thanks to MDC and all the great books out there) I felt confident in the process. But I am scared about the epidural and the section! Plus, of course it is a let down--I saw a chiro throughout the pregnancy and followed spinning babies tips to try to prevent this! (She would have done webster last night if I had called, but I just didn't see the point when they scheduled the surgery already.) If I felt any fight in me I could try to find a lay midwife willing to do frank breech delivery or protest and wait to see if I can get him to turn, but the motivation is not there. Plus I LOVE my MW! I am in a go-with-the-flow state of being and not devistated--drawing upon my spiritual resources. Maybe there is a karmic lesson here--buddhists believe dissapointiment is an excellent learning tool--at least by looking at this experience in that way I can try to get something positive out of it. In addition to my baby--which I can hardly believe I will be seeing in a few hours! Hopefully the love I will feel for him will wash away my mixed feelings about the way he will come into the world!
One ironic note--one nurse who will attend today (she did the NST I had last night) had two home births with my MW and the wife of the OB who is doing the section also had a HB with her!
Thanks for listening--will update when I get home!
Kristin
mama!! I wish you the best!! Just keep holding on to the fact that you will have your baby in your arms VERY soon!
: Good luck, well wishes!!
I'm sorry you're not getting the birth you expected. I hope everything goes well any you're holding your new baby right now. Sending you easy recovery vibes...
: )!
