Feeling very overwhelmed...

[AuntRayRay]

Hi mama's ..

Let's see if I can condense my thoughts..where to start....

-Ronny(autistic) runs away=DYFS called=neglect charges=appealing it=UGH!

-Jio=heart cond.,adhd symptoms,drives everybody crazy.

-House always a mess!

-Behaviorist comes to home=charts&rules for Ronny & Jio=suggestion 4 med's & Jio being in school=mother(me) doesn't have control/power of children=AHHH!!

-Depressed sister(who babysat while I worked who was non-attentive to kids&didn't clean -up)) moves out=now I work 3hours 1day/week with children.

-Boyfriend=minimal help.(don't even feel like I want the realtionship anymore)

Ok so ...
I feel all I do is get mad all the time and yell. Jio drives me crazy all the time. Its like he likes to get me mad on purpose?! All I do is clean and the house is still a mess..ugh! Although I'm only working about three hours a week my schedule book is filled with errands..between Section 8 housing, SSI, Medicaid,DYFS case,Dr's, Behaviorist, Food store, bank, Karate, Cub Scouts, Gymnastics,etc..
I want to do things like go to the park and museums and I just can't..there's either no time or I am exhausted.
I want to gentle discipline and unschool and have a happy household and I just feel like such a failure....I'm sorry if I'm coming off as "poor me"...I really don't have any close friends that I see anyway or that can relate. My mom and dad number one live out of state and number two are dysfunctional. In fact I got alot of yelling and such when I was younger. In fact my mother thinks I should put my son on med's and put him back into school anyway. She can't handle Jio for even a couple of hours without losing it with him.
I'm trying to see a therapist thats into AP and natural stuff, but its hard..its $135. a pop and thats alot for me to spend what every two weeks or a month maybe?
I thought maybe other mama's here could give me advice or had some similar issues and could relate//I don't know..
thanx for listening~

RAyRay~

[unimatrix0]

I don't have any advice; things are stressful around my house too. I also wanted to unschool, but I just don't think I can do it for my own mental health.
I also don't have much support around (no one who would 'get it' anyway) and know how difficult it is.
I hope you figure out what you want to do with your relationship. It must be difficult to be under so much stress while also worrying about your relationship.

[AuntRayRay]

Originally Posted by unimatrix0

I don't have any advice; things are stressful around my house too. I also wanted to unschool, but I just don't think I can do it for my own mental health.
I also don't have much support around (no one who would 'get it' anyway) and know how difficult it is.
I hope you figure out what you want to do with your relationship. It must be difficult to be under so much stress while also worrying about your relationship.

Thanx for the hug unimatrix0 !

[freestyler]

Holy crapola, I could have written your post! We have four kids and are homeschooling. But our oldest is a total mental case---I mean, she is seriously mentally ill. I do not know where to start with her. We cannot afford the expense involved in therapy and our insurance is not helpful, plus the loss of confidentiality once you involve insurance....I feel so overwhelmed too, I'm exhausted and cannot homeschool properly. Our oldest is having severe violent and explosive episodes, I am pretty sure she has a severe mood disorder. Some people would think she just needs good, strong disciplining and a tight rein, very tight....and that is true, but it does not help.

I hear ya, mamma! Mental illness is terrible and god, it is exhausting. I also do not know where to turn! I think our oldest needs medications, and believe me, I am a crunchy, non-chemical person! I have never even given the kids a tylenol or ANYTHING! We are so frigging crunchy it isn't funny.

So where do we start, you and I? Your situation is more complicated with a bad relationship and the social worker and stuff. Do you have a church or similar organization you can turn to? Just to start getting some good help? At least it would be a start? Damn, I don't have any good advice for you! I'm in such a similar position myself. Let me know what you find! Just sending you lots and lots of hugs. I know how awful and hard it is when things get bad. Hugs to you!

[AuntRayRay]

update..

HI mama's

ups and downs always, but wanted to share some good news: after fighting with DYFS for over a year it finally paid off...they overturned their decision from "substaniated" to "unfounded". The judge in this case was pleased with this and agreed this was the best decision in this case The first judge I've seen (not that I've seen that many, lol) that was soo understanding. She knows alot about autism apparantly and sympathized Thnk god its over...now I hope those people leave us alone in the future.

some other things...
Been going to planning meetings for a new "free/democratic school" planning to open about 20 minutes from me in Sept. My 10yr son wants to go and I think it will be a great fit for him We're hoping they'll be able to do a sliding scale with tuition. My nephew I have custody of has been spending about 2 weeks a month at my moms..which he really enjoys My sister..well......she's still her and I try to not rely on her much, because its really better not having her too much involved here. I was laid off my job of 5 yrs, but it turns out to be better (not money wiseLOL), less stress since my son hated having to go and would act out and it was a negative environment for me and the kids...so it works out.
Some things haven't changed some have for the better some for the worst...some days I wake up happy and ready to be as positive as possible, other days..well, those are the days I try to have less of, LOL The more warm weather and sun I get the better Think maybe I should move somewhere warm one day.

Stay positive and live in the now~
How you doing, Freestyler?

RayRay~