I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I cant' imagine how you feel with all that you've had to deal with. I remember reading your posts of how your mom was visiting you and it was with such glee. I pray that your memories help you through the darkness.
Oh no. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my own Mama almost 3 years ago unexpectedly so I know the pain and shock that it can cause. If you feel the need to talk, there is a tribe of Mamas without Mamas in the tribal section.