crazymama of 3 closeI have 3 children, Gus, age 38 months, Ella age 22 months, Lucy 2 months. When I was pregnant with Ella, I read an article which said that I was going to permanently damage my children by having them too close together. I was in about the 8 month of pregnancy, and had many times questioned whether or not it was a mistake. I also am 15 months younger than my sister, and had heard the horror stories of her poking me in the eye, and moving all of my stuff out of the house when I was two weeks old, not to mention all of the sibling rivalry from that point forward. I was scared to death of having two children, much less a girl (i did not find out that she was a girl until she came sliding out on my bed!) since I don't know that many women with good relationships with their mothers.
Here's what I think now, now that I'm mom of 3, another less than 3 years apart. Our children choose us. They choose us so they can teach us. What can we learn from them, from this experience of being mothers? How can we grow with them. They will demand everything we have and more, whether they are 10 months apart or 4 years, or 10 years. In the beginning, you will have some challenges that those mothers who waited 'appropriate' lengths of time won't. You may be breastfeeding two, like I did. You may be breastfeeding two and pregnant, like I was. Whether or not this was planned, a part of you knew that this was what your life would be. I am riding the heavy waves of postpartum hormones right now. It is sometimes really scary. I still think I have made a mistake sometimes. Babies come to us for reasons and your babies only need you to be true to yourself as much as possible.
Gotta go nurse Lucy.
Peace and blessings to you....