So, I've got a huge long post for you. I apologize ahead of time for the length, but... this is just so incredibly awesome, and so "impossible" that I really have to share it.
I was standing in front of a zen-like temple, afraid to go inside. Compelled, I went in, anyway. Inside sat a monk, who offered me a seat on the mat across from him. I sat down, and he indicated two glasses of water that sat between us. Because I was desperately thirsty, I was very grateful.
But there was a problem. Inside the clear, sparkling, truly clean water, was a minnow. In the other glass, the water looked pure, but I knew it to be contaminated. Yet, because one held a living creature, and the other did not, I took the glass of contaminated water. The monk nodded. I had made the right choice. He showed me the way out of the temple, and said two sentences to me.
"Do no harm."
We walked up to the door. I reached for it to open it. He stopped me. "You will know when the time is right."
Then I woke up. Two weeks later, I found out I was pregnant. I will skip the whole story of that, though it is a miracle in and of itself. Suffice it to say, I knew that I was pregnant because I had made the right choice in my dream.
Now, before I found out I was pregnant, I tried to go vegetarian. But I have soy, wheat, and dairy intolerance... can you imagine a vegetarian without soy or wheat?
: Well, I had another dream, in which I was given to understand that I was NOT to go vegetarian while pregnant. Probably due to the fact that when you detox while pregnant, it crosses the placenta.
Well. Now is the right time. But I'm not going vegetarian, I'm going raw foodist. It just feels incredibly, amazingly RIGHT to me.
But I kept procrastinating for one reason. The dehydrator, food processor, and the book I wanted added up to $300. Well, I didn't want to spend that much.
I spent it, and toda I spent nearly $200 buying food to begin my raw food diet. I have decided that I will not keep waiting, NOW is the time, and so I will do it NOW. I have spent the money in perfect faith that I will still be able to easily afford my mortgage and credit card bills, car payment, etc.
I cannot ignore the overwhelming feeling that this is RIGHT. My daughter has been reacting badly to the dairy and wheat I eat despite my intolerance. I have been exhausted and not even wanting to get up in the mornings.
No more, by god! The time is now, and I feel it in the depths of my being.
So I spent the money in complete trust that, while I can't see more than the distance of headlights in front of myself, when I need that money, it will be there.
It's like magic...