I think I have PPD...

[amyandelle]

I feel like I litterly want to jump out of my skin. I feel like I am going to expolde. It has been a really hard day here. Elle has dragged out almost every toy that she owns but she has not played with any of them. When I ask her to clean up she laughs and says "I'm making a mess" normally this would not be so bad because I could get down on the floor with her and get her to help me clean up but Meadow has been up for HOURS crying and fussing and I just can't keep up with both of them. This of course makes me feel like a failure. Meadow has finally settled down in her bouncer and Elle is finally relaxing on the couch getting ready to go to sleep. My house is TRASHED and I have no motivation to clean it. My dh is at work for another hour but he is off tomorrow so I am really grateful for that. I am just so overwhelmed right now. I am just having a really hard time adjusting. And of course as I type that I feel like a horrible mom...

Amy

[lilysmama1124]

I am feeling the same way. Although I am so happy with my new dd i am jsut feelign so overwhelmed, over tired, and over it! By that I mean I am tired of sitting on the couch all day and all night because she always wants to be held even though at times it is wonderful to just be holding my babe. I want my house to be clean, I want to exercise, I WANT TO SLEEP! It feels like there is no end in sight and I am starting to have moments of feeling resentful and angry at DH and DD. Then I feel guilty which makes it all the worse and I only have one so I woud tell you what my husband told me last night. He said that I couldn't possibly be doing more for my DH than I already am and survive, that we do more for her than most parents do for their dc's because we actually do what is best for her, and that if I wasn't a good mom I probably be wouldn't be worrying too much about whether or not I am a good mom. Hang in there!

[mom0810]

lilysmama,

After reading this and your other post, it does sound to me like PPD. If you can find anyone to talk to, please do. Lots of moms here have been through it, too. You should both check out the PPD forum.

Depression and anxiety are sometimes comorbid conditions, something like 20% of people who have anxiety have depression, too. Especially postpartum. This was all new information to me a few months ago, but I have learned so much from the moms here.

I hope you are both feeling better soon. Exercise and light help, so does fish oil. I think if you are feeling poorly, that medication is also a really great option.

Hugs to you both!

amyandelle, I'm in IL, too! Our kids share a birthday... ds is 12/02/05!!

[amyandelle]

Thanks to both of you!!

Yesterday was a good day for me. My dh was off of work and he took Elle out for a few hours so I could actually get stuff done around here

Today however is going south quick. Elle is not listening and I am getting aggrivated and overwhelmed. I know she is just bored and slightly jealous of her sister getting my attention but it does not make it any less stressful.

mom0810: where is the ppd forum? I can't find it...

Thanks,
Amy

[mom0810]

I think it's in the pregnancy section. Says postpartum depression, it's like the last one in the listing. Let me know if you can't find it!

hugs to you and happy new year!!

[lilysmama1124]

Thanks to you both- i have along post on my thread so i won't repeat myself. Amy is there anyone who can take your older daughter out of the house for awhile to entertain her and give you a break every once in awile-it may help.
i'm going to check out the ppd section and probably give myself about 1-2 weeks and if I don't improve start back on meds!

[Summerland]

I found it very overwhelming the first 2 months or so with a new baby, it's getting easier(most days anyways though)