Kelly, those numbers sound awfully good to me ! Thanks for the thorough dusting, I am feeling utterly dustless myself these days.
Coome how are you holding out ? Any news ?
Allison, IKWYM about milestones, my good friend who got pg 9 months after we started trying is due in two months. I have made peace with it because I love her and they are an awesome family. That doesn't mean I won't cry though
I had really hoped we could be pg together. I haven't seen her in awhile and I think she is avoiding me because she knows how depressing it is... I need to call her.
Tiara how are you doing these days ?
Funnygrace may I ask why IUI is up next ? Do you suspect CM issues or does it just seem like the next step to you ? I am curious for my own selfish reasons, it could be something in the future for us. One more thing to research. Did you say before that you were going to do it at home ?
I hope your speculum/semen/cervix adventure did the trick for you
What a story to tell the grandkids that would make.
BTW it is never TMI
Clara and Crystal welcome, may the newbie luck be upon you both !
Clara usually the 12 month mark is when they start running tests and taking things seriously, sometimes sooner if you are over 35 or have a dr who is sympathetic. If you haven't gotten a SA I say now's the time... one cheap and painless test you can possibly even do at home... they say that 40% of the time there is a problem it is the man.
Ity I am watching your chart this cycle
: good things are coming for us all.
Leslie, I hope this is your last 2WW for a long time
: you're right, this does suck !
Yes that was my first round of clomid, and yes I have to go back to the dr so he can prescribe the next round (we agreed to try 2-3 cycles). He wants to check my ovaries before I take it again. I think he is right and safe to do it really, he is just being cautious, but my insurance does not cover the visit and it's over $100 just to see him. Which makes taking clomid a lot more expensive ! I kinda wish I could just take it unmonitored since I feel fine and I do not have the money to do this... I am using a credit card to cover the visit tomorrow and I don't like to do that. Plus I just had to put the $400+ left from my HSG on there and I can see myself going into serious debt pursuing fertility treatments.
And I have had to stop and ask myself where it ends. I cannot force a miracle. Babies come when they are supposed to and not when I want it to happen, apparently, and what if it is going to happen in three years whether I try or not. I could spend that three years going crazy and spending crazy money on fertility stuff, or I could spend it cherishing my loved ones and focusing on having a fulfilling life here and now, not "when I get pregnant" . Maybe I should just give up on the activeness of this pursuit, I don't know.
I am going to go ahead and see the dr tomorrow as planned, and taking clomid again as planned. I am going to ask him about his thoughts on IUI... somehow I think my difficult cervix could have something to do with our trouble. Or maybe its just not in the cards.
I think the most positive thing I can do is start moving towards adoption. I'd never stop ttc, even if we did adopt, but I feel like the adoption road almost always ends with a child. I don't know where this ttc road is going.
My DD is almost 6, she longs for siblings. She has been asking for a baby since she could talk, seriously. Whenever she makes a wish it is for a baby brother or sister, it just breaks my heart. I wish I could explain to her why it seems that every one else has a baby and she doesn't. I can't really explain that one to myself.
Tonight she was lamenting her "only-ness" and I told her that she will be a big sister someday, and that when you are the oldest you just have to wait for the others to come after. Someone has to be first. And I decided in my heart that one way or another this is going to happen. TTC and Adoption feel like moving mountains to me at this point but somehow I have got to make it happen. A few months back DD said "Mommy what if you never have a baby ?" (no she doesn't know we are ttc but she knows we would all enjoy a baby) I told her if that happened we would adopt a child. She wanted to go and do it right then ! She was very excited about the idea of a brother or sister no matter how they get here.