TTC #1 in our 30's January Thread - Page 17

[KitttyKat]

Here I am at 7 and 9 DPO and still no breast pain. Yay!! I feel like my boobs have been hurting since my miscarriage.
I had mild cramping on the right at 4 and 6 DPO (which I' starting to think is hormonal because I have had it every cycle since my miscarriage) I was half expecting it yesterday because that was 6DPO for the left. Nope...nothing. another Yay.

I'm really excited that I feel normal and my chart looks great and it's not drug induced.

I don't have that pregnant feeling like I did last cycle though...but I feel great. I don't have any of the problems that have plauged me since my miscarriage. Vitex totally agrees with me.
I can't wait to see what day my next ovulation falls on.

[Brightside]

Heh

Maybe I shouldn't encourage obsessing, CKing, but I can't help it!

Do you normally have cramping at this time in your cycle?

Before I got my BFP and had a clue what was happening, I had cramping starting on 5 dpo, and off and on til spotting on days 9-11. I thought it was a precursor to AF, since my cycle was wacked and I had no clue what was going on. The girls were sore right away, and I came down sick with a cold and flu-like stuff within one week. Ugh.

So fingers crossed for you and all the other TWW'ers!

[cking]

Oh thanks Beth.

Do you normally have cramping at this time in your cycle?

Ya know...I don't know. I mean, I have myself so confused from the months of ttc. In the past several months, I've felt something during the lp. So it's hard to say if I imagined it, ya know?

I want to say that this feels different today, but I'm really not sure.

I think this is where the crazies really start, the second week. :

[jpiper0430]

Originally Posted by cking

I think this is where the crazies really start, the second week. :

I totally Agree! Even when I promise myself not to get crazy and nitpick every twinge, cramp or gag reflex, I can't help it!!!

[nony]

Hi everyone! I have been very out of touch...I have dial-up and staying up to date with this thread is hard! But I am still TTC and getting 'warmer' everyday. I'm on CD15 and O-ing as I type, but we TTA this month... Even though we're trying to plan and be responsible, the nice thing is that if we get a BFP this month, it'll be all celebration!!! Anyway, wanted to say hello and wish you TTCers
Thanks for keeping me on the list

[Cattibrie]

Originally Posted by nony

Hi everyone! I have been very out of touch...I have dial-up and staying up to date with this thread is hard! But I am still TTC and getting 'warmer' everyday. I'm on CD15 and O-ing as I type, but we TTA this month... Even though we're trying to plan and be responsible, the nice thing is that if we get a BFP this month, it'll be all celebration!!! Anyway, wanted to say hello and wish you TTCers
Thanks for keeping me on the list

Heya, good to hear from you. : for your BFP and lots of

[CowsRock]

Hi all,

I had to take notes again to catch up

Cattibrie, I'm so sorry to hear AF found you. It's great that you are looking forward to the next round. I've had extra cramps this cycle too - so annoying :

Dee, hang in there with your wait I'm a chart novice and can barely figure them out, so no advice here...it looks good to me. : and And thanks for the Slippery Stuff and preseed advice. I ordered the preseed and just got it yesterday. I'm looking forward to trying it this cycle.

Ace, welcome again and I'm glad to hear your insems went well. And WOW to the extended leg elevation! That's dedication!

Sarah, : for trying this month and here's some

Kat, yay to no boob pain! yay to feeling normal! I'm glad you are feeling great. : and

And to all the two week obsessors out there : and We should call it the 2wo instead of 2ww.

Nothing much new here, just waiting for AF to depart. I did order the preseed and some more OPK tests. And like Cattibrie, I now have a stack of plastic cups neatly waiting in the bathroom for my pee. I guess I was feeling like Xenon and needed more "tools". I got the preseed and the OPK tests, and I've got some vitex coming too. Hubby and I did an at home sperm count test from Baby Hopes and we got a good result from that. It can't test for mobility but it's nice to know his count is where it should be.

I never got a chance to respond about my intercourse pain. I've been thinking about it but I'm not sure how to describe it. This morning wasn't a chance to really think about how it feels because we had to use a condom for the sperm count test and condoms burn me...I suspect a slight allergy to latex but when we tried a non-latex in the past it was the same sensation just not as bad. I've talked to several doctors and all say lubrication. We've tried several (not slippery stuff though, thanks again Dee), and most recently we've used a couple homeopathic lubes, Sensua Organics. We use a lot but maybe it just isn't the right kind. I guess I would describe the pain as feeling like I'm being both stabbed and scraped at the same time. Sometimes a really sharp pain but I think that is only if the angle has him hitting my cervix. Otherwise it just feels like he is stabbing the sides going in and scraping them coming out, I can't think of how else to describe it. Sex has always hurt and I was hoping with hubby it would be better since there aren't weird mental things going on, but it seems to be just a physical issue. I can't wait to try the preseed, but I don't want to get my hopes up either. Thankfully I have tons of fun before he "impales" me

[Dee-Groovy]

Wow it's been pretty quiet around here. Lots of waiting an obsessing going on. I like the idea of calling it the 2wo instead of 2ww! We're waiting, but not patiently!

Ace I read something about not elevating your hips too much because the semen will pool behind your cervix instead of at the cervix. Hopefully you won't have to, but if you try again you may want to elevate less and put in an instead cup afterward to hold everything in. You can find them with tampons and stuff b/c they're meant to catch blood but I've read several stories about how they've helped conception. It may have even helped me in December. Thanks for asking about people's stories, I'm actually learning a lot!

Jenn thanks for the input on my chart. I'm really confused and tempted to just put O on cd13 as a compromise, but that gives me "high" pregnancy chances and I don't wanna get my hopes up! Did you chart for a while before trying? I naively thought that going off BCP would be enough to get pregnant, and I've always had very regular cycles so I didn't think I'd need much time to adjust. Also I think O on cd15 last cycle had something to do with the early m/c the previous month. Anyway, like Sarah said, it doesn't matter - I'll have a + or - at the end of it all either way.

Thanks for the zen influence and cheerfulness Sarah, it brings a smile to my face!

Originally Posted by cking

Hi guys! I'm also trying hard not to obsess. I've been staring at my chart constantly. But still, somehow I feel like I'm obsessing less this time than any other time.

I could've written that! I think having a non-pg cycle after those 2 back-to-back pg cycle gave me some perspective on what's normal during the 2ww. Apparently mild cramping/twinges is normal. Bah! :

Kat I'm so happy that vitex is agreeing with you! Yay for no boob pain!

Beth how are you feeling? Any morning sickness since the awful flu/cold you had?

Nony good to hear from you!

Kripa good call on ordering preseed and OPKs during AF. I waited too long and missed my chace. : for this cycle with your extra tools! I don't know what to say about the kind of intercourse pain you're having. Mine was different, mostly right at the entrance, but good luck with the new lube(s).

I'm home sick today after having an awful PMS-y day yesterday. I hate it when I cry at work (in the bathroom) - it's so embarrassing. Glad to be home b/c it's cold, windy and rainy and I'm on the couch with my gingerbread flavored decaf coffee. Hope everyone who was under the weather is feeling better!

How are the rest of our lurkers doing? Nico, looks like you're Oing! Ity, what's going on with your chart? If it wasn't for those +OPKs I'd think you just O'd! Maybe triphasic? : Foxey are you still around?

[cking]

Originally Posted by MajorGroover

I'm home sick today after having an awful PMS-y day yesterday. I hate it when I cry at work (in the bathroom) - it's so embarrassing. Glad to be home b/c it's cold, windy and rainy and I'm on the couch with my gingerbread flavored decaf coffee. Hope everyone who was under the weather is feeling better!

Oh, I'm jealous. I've been wanting to take a sick day (read: hibernation day) all week. On Monday I had a pretty PMS-y time at the end of the day (I have no doubt it was really the hunger, as I get low blood sugar easily and I can tell). DH and I ended up getting on the wrong train, and didn't find out under the last stop, at which point we started yelling at several conductors. : Oy, that was rough.

[KitttyKat]

I've gone back and edited some of my extremely personal information that I meant to share with someone because it was very rudely brought to my attention yesterday that the information is not being read.
I suddenly feel like a freak show on this board. Like it's ammusing to watch the old woman think she might be trying to have a baby with all the younger, more fertile woman here.
The person can't say she didn't know I was here, she responded to my posts.

I think I'm taking a break from posting for a while. I just don't feel safe here right now.

[beckyphry]

Kat I'm so sorry to hear this.

[CowsRock]

Originally Posted by KitttyKat

I've gone back and edited some of my extremely personal information that I meant to share with someone because it was very rudely brought to my attention yesterday that the information is not being read.
I suddenly feel like a freak show on this board. Like it's ammusing to watch the old woman think she might be trying to have a baby with all the younger, more fertile woman here.
The person can't say she didn't know I was here, she responded to my posts.

I think I'm taking a break from posting for a while. I just don't feel safe here right now.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way I enjoy reading your posts. I'm always impressed with how in tune you are with your body. I didn't know about this charting stuff and I'm just getting to know my body. Your posts have already helped me look at things going on in my body differently several times. So for what it is worth, I'm reading your posts.

Selfish request here - could you maybe PM me and tell me if my intercourse pain sounds like your experience? I'd like to try to continue that discussion with you. If you need a break from that too, I totally understand.

And also for whatever it is worth, I don't feel like a younger, fertile woman. In all honesty I'm feeling a bit scared that life had me put this on hold for far too long and that we may have a hard time of it. I'm still optimistic, but I'd be lying if I didn't say that fear is there.

Anyway, I hope you don't leave, and if you do I hope it isn't for long.

[xenon]

Originally Posted by Kripadasi

I did order the preseed and some more OPK tests. And like Cattibrie, I now have a stack of plastic cups neatly waiting in the bathroom for my pee. I guess I was feeling like Xenon and needed more "tools". I got the preseed and the OPK tests, and I've got some vitex coming too.

I'm jealous! I ordered PreSeed last Friday and it still hasn't arrived! I was already well-stocked on OPKs, though, so at least I have those to look forward to.

Kat, I'm so sorry about whatever has happened

[xenon]

Also,

Originally Posted by Kripadasi

And also for whatever it is worth, I don't feel like a younger, fertile woman. In all honesty I'm feeling a bit scared that life had me put this on hold for far too long and that we may have a hard time of it. I'm still optimistic, but I'd be lying if I didn't say that fear is there.

: (but I need a sad/worried guy holding a sign, not a happy guy. Maybe he's worried but optimistic?)

[cking]

Kat, your posts are most certainly being read.

Originally Posted by Kripadasi

And also for whatever it is worth, I don't feel like a younger, fertile woman. In all honesty I'm feeling a bit scared that life had me put this on hold for far too long and that we may have a hard time of it. I'm still optimistic, but I'd be lying if I didn't say that fear is there.

A big for you. I have to say I feel very similar.
I certainly don't think I'm older IRL. But seeing that there are so many mamas and women ttc here in their early twenties has been a bit of a shock. There also is this vibe in many other threads that anyone close to 30 automatically has plummetting fertility. That bugged me, but when I realize that I didn't get pg in our first 6 months of trying, I know that I need a thread like this to reassure me.

[AdinaL]

Hello ladies!

I need you to remember that personal problems between members should not be aired on the board, but should be taken to PM. If you have issues with another member, please PM me and let me know.

I strive to make TTC a supportive, friendly place, having been here a long time myself. So, if you see issues, let me know. But, please, keep the personally arguments in PM only please.

Thanks

Adina

[Cattibrie]

KitttyKat, I'm sorry you're feeling this way too. I've read all of your posts and have been really impressed with your knowledge of your body, which has helped me figure out some things with mine. I hope you feel safe enough to post again soon, in the mean time, I'm going to miss your posts and updates
Yay for the vitex agreeing with you, yay for no sore boobs and double yay for two eggs this cycle! :

Kripadasi, Yay for new gadgets! I'm still being teased about the cups ready to go, and all my tests layed out on display so that I can enjoy looking at them whenever I want to, but the joking and teasing is helping to keep things more fun than frustrating, so I'm kind of enjoying it (secretly enjoying it, of course)
I have a reaction to condoms too. On top of an itching/burning feeling, everywhere the condom touched swells to... impressive proportions for at least several hours and up to a day later I'm happy that DH's count came back good. I bet that's a big relief.

MajorGroover, I had heard the same thing about lifting your legs too much and the sperm getting stuck... I had forgotten though, thanks for bringing that up! I was pretty close to doing handstands some days last cycle
I think your chart looks great no matter which day you actualy Oed on : I hope you feel better soon.

cking, I'm feelin' ya with trying not to obsess. If I'm not obsessing about the TWW i'm obsessing about waiting to O. You know, just in case FF is off and I O at a different time than I think I do. I'm trying to ignore everything this time around too, but it seems the more I try to ignore, the more I notice new and interesting (and frustrating) things!

Not much is going on here ATM. Waiting to O is almost as fun as waiting to know. I'm considering buying stock in Ben & Jerry's Marsha Marsha Marshmallow ice cream. It's become my staple food the past 2 months I think DH and I are going out to our cabin again this weekend. There's no internet there but we picked up The Guardian and Saw 3 so I'll be reasonably distracted from chart withdrawal... for a few hours anyways heh.

Good luck to all of our TWWers!!
Can't wait to see more BFP's in our group

Because we haven't had an 80's movie quote in a while:
"Look, It's the African ant eater ritual!" From an old favorite, Can't Buy Me Love.

[dctexan]

Kat - I completely understand that you might need to take a break from the boards (things can get quite intense and emotions run high with TTC). I have no idea the extent of what went on (clearly intense enough for mod intervention), but I am sorry you are feeling "unsafe" here. Big to you. Hope to see you back with us sooner rather than later (or better yet, with a graduate update!).

Christina - I am trying really hard not to get too excited about your chart (because I know I got a bit nervous when people got too excited about my charts), but things look good for you hon. : and !!!!

To all the 30s TTCers, I KNOW the fear is there for you because I felt it BIG TIME. That is a HUGE reason why I started this thread, I needed TTC support from same-age, similarly-minded peers. Remember, we all have our reasons for waiting until now to start TTC and we really need to trust ourselves that we did what was best at the time. The road to motherhood is not easy for anyone. While physically it may be a bit bumpier for us, the road isn't closed and our bodies are not broken. Many paths can lead to the same place and with age comes the experience and courage to take detours that younger women may not even see as possibilities. Your journey will be unique and different from anyone elses. You are your own best guide. You have made it through life so far, and I know each of you is capable and ready to meet whatever lies ahead. I trust in my heart that each of us will end up in the place she was most meant to be. Lots of love and support to you all.

BTW, Wooohoo Cattibrie, busting out the 80s movie quotes Those 80s flashbacks always bring a smile to my face.

[Cattibrie]

Originally Posted by Kripadasi

And also for whatever it is worth, I don't feel like a younger, fertile woman. In all honesty I'm feeling a bit scared that life had me put this on hold for far too long and that we may have a hard time of it. I'm still optimistic, but I'd be lying if I didn't say that fear is there.

You really nailed how I feel with this. Our closest friends already have a grandbaby. All of our other friends have kids that are grown and on their own already. One couple has a daughter that's a senior in HS. Eventhough I know that waiting was the best thing for us it's hard not to think that we waited too long.
For extra fun, every now and then we meet a new couple through friends. On four different occasions, four different women (one each occasion) pulled me aside to express their sympathies for our "infertility issues". As far as I know we don't have any issues. People assume that we do because we've been together for 12 years and don't have any children. We don't have any because we weren't ready for any. It's hard not to get down about it sometimes. And eventhough I don't believe we have anything to worry about, it's like a seed gets planted whenever I hear something like that. "Oh man, what if we DO have some infertility problems and we just don't know it because we never tried?" BAH.
This is such a great thread

[k9sarchik]

Hey Kat ~ I love your posts! Since we are the same age I am routing for you all the way!
We are not too old to get our babies! We're saving the best eggs for last.

Don't stay away too long.